after all that you have done i still think you are an angel taht fell from the heaven above...
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
my heart is weary
i have always tot that friendship should be based on trust and i have always been one who trust his friends and would do things for his friends. But recently all i see is deceptioon and lies. Where cant everything be just more simplier?
really disappointed that she lied to me.. after all this while i thought she would at least be truthful to me about it.. It's not the first time i have been heartbroken by tat ger... When she got attached to junjie tat time i was also chasing her. Although she say tat she dunno about it. but actually Mandy had already told her about it a long time ago... There are so many instances where she chose not to be too honest with me. I have always turned a blind eye but cos i think sometimes when you care too much for someone you forgive them for doing something that you dun like... Still i am very disappointed that she lied to me when i asked her if she was attached to lawrance. DO I LOOK LIKE I M BLIND TO YOU?? i am really really heartbroken... it's not the fact taht she choose him over me.. it's the fact that she lied to me that she does not wan to go into relationship.
okay it's also the fact that someone can win over her heart after knowing her for 3 weeks. managed to get her to overcome her committment phobia if she ever had such things. I have been trying to give her time to slowly slowly accept me as the man for her but i guess i am juz not match for the 3 weeks guy... i have never been good with words but i have always thought tat sometimes actions speaks louder than words. I have alwasy tried to make her happy in ways tat i can but i guess it's not enough....
Y did u tell me that you are attached? y muz u lie to me when i questioned you. this is not what someone does to the person that they care about. Maybe in the end i am just a piece of shit to you. A person who has been irritating you for about a yr now... all teh feelings inside me is unbearable... really feel like dying now...
IF u have told me that you realised that you like this guy a lot and you got attached to him, i would have wished you all the best and still be your friend... now i dunno... i really dunno.... all i wanted was for you to be happy and yet yet yet.. in the end i am still not worth the effort for u to be truthful to me about it...
yet y do i still like you that much? really wanted you to be the one for me till the day i stop existing in this world. really wan to give u the world and let u be the happiest woman in the world. i dunno if i will ever find someone that i will really wan to do that...
i really wan to hate u but i juz cant... i juz know that my heart is shattered into bits by u ... it's incapable of accepting anyone but you but now i dunno if it's even there in the first place... my heart lay dying...
i really wan to be jue and say taht i dun ever wanna be ur fren anymore that if i can trust u now then i cant rely on u next time. if there exist no trust how can i ever rely on you? but i juz cant cant cant bring myself to do it... i still long to be by ur side even after all the hurt u inflicted consciously and non consciously to me throughout this period tat i know you...
i will try to curb this emotion that i have for you if that's wat u really wan.. to be with taht 3 week guy and i just hope that he will not be another junjie... I am really really weary now... i dun know if i will ever put in so much feelings into a ger anymore....
really disappointed that she lied to me.. after all this while i thought she would at least be truthful to me about it.. It's not the first time i have been heartbroken by tat ger... When she got attached to junjie tat time i was also chasing her. Although she say tat she dunno about it. but actually Mandy had already told her about it a long time ago... There are so many instances where she chose not to be too honest with me. I have always turned a blind eye but cos i think sometimes when you care too much for someone you forgive them for doing something that you dun like... Still i am very disappointed that she lied to me when i asked her if she was attached to lawrance. DO I LOOK LIKE I M BLIND TO YOU?? i am really really heartbroken... it's not the fact taht she choose him over me.. it's the fact that she lied to me that she does not wan to go into relationship.
okay it's also the fact that someone can win over her heart after knowing her for 3 weeks. managed to get her to overcome her committment phobia if she ever had such things. I have been trying to give her time to slowly slowly accept me as the man for her but i guess i am juz not match for the 3 weeks guy... i have never been good with words but i have always thought tat sometimes actions speaks louder than words. I have alwasy tried to make her happy in ways tat i can but i guess it's not enough....
Y did u tell me that you are attached? y muz u lie to me when i questioned you. this is not what someone does to the person that they care about. Maybe in the end i am just a piece of shit to you. A person who has been irritating you for about a yr now... all teh feelings inside me is unbearable... really feel like dying now...
IF u have told me that you realised that you like this guy a lot and you got attached to him, i would have wished you all the best and still be your friend... now i dunno... i really dunno.... all i wanted was for you to be happy and yet yet yet.. in the end i am still not worth the effort for u to be truthful to me about it...
yet y do i still like you that much? really wanted you to be the one for me till the day i stop existing in this world. really wan to give u the world and let u be the happiest woman in the world. i dunno if i will ever find someone that i will really wan to do that...
i really wan to hate u but i juz cant... i juz know that my heart is shattered into bits by u ... it's incapable of accepting anyone but you but now i dunno if it's even there in the first place... my heart lay dying...
i really wan to be jue and say taht i dun ever wanna be ur fren anymore that if i can trust u now then i cant rely on u next time. if there exist no trust how can i ever rely on you? but i juz cant cant cant bring myself to do it... i still long to be by ur side even after all the hurt u inflicted consciously and non consciously to me throughout this period tat i know you...
i will try to curb this emotion that i have for you if that's wat u really wan.. to be with taht 3 week guy and i just hope that he will not be another junjie... I am really really weary now... i dun know if i will ever put in so much feelings into a ger anymore....
Saturday, May 28, 2005
moving on i muz
had a nice talk with her on thursday. we talked at wisma and she told me tat she no longer like me tat way anymore.. n i cant create e miracle tat i was trying to create n tat it will be a one sided affair.. something along this line... so wat can i do but to let go...
letting go is really hard..really the hardest thing i ever have to do... guess i put in too much of my emotion into her.. wishing someday somehow i can be the man for her.but apparently i juz aint...
i dun blame her for anything.. i juz blame myself for unable to make her feel for me the way i feel towards her. I can blame jj for breaking watever confidence she has on relationship and also blame myself for not meeting her earlier and stuff but i guess it all boils down to me not showing enough to her tat i am the one for her. not being to pluck up the courage earlier to tell her tat i like her and make more effort to chase her when jj have yet to win her heart. if only i could have done tat. there's so much if only in my head now..
if only i could make her feel secured to be with me. feel secured to remove tat armour of self defense emotionally. to devote all her time and emotions on me. but i couldnt do tat.. cos i juz dint have the courage to tell her when i was supposed to...
but i am still glad i was able to meet her. although she's after juz a human with flaws and carry with her scars from failed relationships, in my eyes i still think she's perfect. whenever she tells me of her past relationship where her ex used to hit her, when i see the scar on her calf cos by scalding herself on the exhaust of her ex bike after they quarrelled, i will feel instinctively that i wan to protect her from ever suffering this type of hurt anymore. to make her the happiest ger on earth. to shower her with all the love that she rightfully deserved.
i guess sometimes things dun just turn out the way that u wan it to be. i am sure that she knows tat i wan only the best for her and i would never hurt her but i guess tat somehow i was unable to win her heart. i guess she just couldnt love me the way tat i love her.. she treats me like a good fren ... a nice guy...who cares alot for his frens. what can i do if she feels tat way. there's nothing i can do... but to let go... cos i really juz wan her to be the happiest ger on earth even if it means i am not the one to give her that happiness.i really dun wan to be a nice guy to her cos i always hear stories tat nice guys always die first. they always dun get teh ger. but i can never stop being nice to her... keep telling pple dun be too nice to gers yet i myself am unable to practice what i preach.
if it's ur decision i shall respect it. although i am still dying inside to be ur man but i shall attempt to be ur fren.. to be there for u until that right person comes along , to protect u from harm... as a fren... i juz need sometimes for me to pick up the piece of my heart... finally understood wat is the feeling of being heart broken.........
letting go is really hard..really the hardest thing i ever have to do... guess i put in too much of my emotion into her.. wishing someday somehow i can be the man for her.but apparently i juz aint...
i dun blame her for anything.. i juz blame myself for unable to make her feel for me the way i feel towards her. I can blame jj for breaking watever confidence she has on relationship and also blame myself for not meeting her earlier and stuff but i guess it all boils down to me not showing enough to her tat i am the one for her. not being to pluck up the courage earlier to tell her tat i like her and make more effort to chase her when jj have yet to win her heart. if only i could have done tat. there's so much if only in my head now..
if only i could make her feel secured to be with me. feel secured to remove tat armour of self defense emotionally. to devote all her time and emotions on me. but i couldnt do tat.. cos i juz dint have the courage to tell her when i was supposed to...
but i am still glad i was able to meet her. although she's after juz a human with flaws and carry with her scars from failed relationships, in my eyes i still think she's perfect. whenever she tells me of her past relationship where her ex used to hit her, when i see the scar on her calf cos by scalding herself on the exhaust of her ex bike after they quarrelled, i will feel instinctively that i wan to protect her from ever suffering this type of hurt anymore. to make her the happiest ger on earth. to shower her with all the love that she rightfully deserved.
i guess sometimes things dun just turn out the way that u wan it to be. i am sure that she knows tat i wan only the best for her and i would never hurt her but i guess tat somehow i was unable to win her heart. i guess she just couldnt love me the way tat i love her.. she treats me like a good fren ... a nice guy...who cares alot for his frens. what can i do if she feels tat way. there's nothing i can do... but to let go... cos i really juz wan her to be the happiest ger on earth even if it means i am not the one to give her that happiness.i really dun wan to be a nice guy to her cos i always hear stories tat nice guys always die first. they always dun get teh ger. but i can never stop being nice to her... keep telling pple dun be too nice to gers yet i myself am unable to practice what i preach.
if it's ur decision i shall respect it. although i am still dying inside to be ur man but i shall attempt to be ur fren.. to be there for u until that right person comes along , to protect u from harm... as a fren... i juz need sometimes for me to pick up the piece of my heart... finally understood wat is the feeling of being heart broken.........
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
sigh
sigh.. i guess i was quite pissed off juz now.. the exchange of msges were all pissed off msges now tat i read it.. noone was giving way and each of us were aiming at wat the other party was trying to say distorting it in the process.. how did it turn out until like tat...
can anyone tell me wat the fuck is committment phobia? too much choice? hurt in the past? she told me she got committment phobia n do not wan to be in a relationship.. how can i convince her otherwise? haven i prove to her yet? after all i know her for close to a yr le...
serina told me tat typically committment phobia is tat they enjoy being in the limelight or/and they have insecurities about relationship and how they dun last...
hmm.. for the first part i have no idea wat to do... wat to do if pple like being popular... i also dunno.. if i were to have 10 gers chasing me i also dunno wat to do man...i guess i can understand tat... but sighz...
for teh insecurity part how the hell am i supposed to make her feel secured to be with me. serina say dun hang around her too much .. then when get chance to hang around attempt to ask her about insecurities and fears.. talk bout my own insecurities and fears then relate to her..
wah seh.. how am i gonna do tat manz...siao... damnit but i muz make it happen...."cos there will be a moment u will feel like telling out some inner feelings all these one..but the point is u guys must not overdo...or else it pisses the girl off..." tat;s wat she say... hmm... really dunno how manz...but i will try...
i hope she's not pissed at me now lor..
can anyone tell me wat the fuck is committment phobia? too much choice? hurt in the past? she told me she got committment phobia n do not wan to be in a relationship.. how can i convince her otherwise? haven i prove to her yet? after all i know her for close to a yr le...
serina told me tat typically committment phobia is tat they enjoy being in the limelight or/and they have insecurities about relationship and how they dun last...
hmm.. for the first part i have no idea wat to do... wat to do if pple like being popular... i also dunno.. if i were to have 10 gers chasing me i also dunno wat to do man...i guess i can understand tat... but sighz...
for teh insecurity part how the hell am i supposed to make her feel secured to be with me. serina say dun hang around her too much .. then when get chance to hang around attempt to ask her about insecurities and fears.. talk bout my own insecurities and fears then relate to her..
wah seh.. how am i gonna do tat manz...siao... damnit but i muz make it happen...."cos there will be a moment u will feel like telling out some inner feelings all these one..but the point is u guys must not overdo...or else it pisses the girl off..." tat;s wat she say... hmm... really dunno how manz...but i will try...
i hope she's not pissed at me now lor..
Broken
after all this time... i am worth nothing more than a fling at most...
sighz... this has got to be the saddest thing on earth man... i am so so so disappointed now...
i tot i meant more to her...
finally asked her the question whether she is attached to lawrance or not.. but i guess there's no point also.. cos i am not even worth anything in her heart.. i am just a passerby to her lor... sighz... is it me who assumes too many things?all the postcards, my bday outing, the kiss, the things we did...her holding on to my arm. afterall this i am worth nothing more than a fling at best?
i dun understand why she does not wan to get into a relationship... isnt it natural for someone to wan to be with the person that he/she likes? my only ans to the qn is tat she does not like me...
"i told u right from the start i dun wan a relationship. it's not wad i wan so if i do get tog with u , it'll prob be for a fling. Not in that way anymore"
i cant believe she actually msged tat to me... all this while i tot if i juz perservere i will be able to win her heart and this~! if i do get together with u, it'll prob be for a fling~!!!!!!! wtf~! i am really really disappointed...
she just replied and said tat she does not like me that way anymore..... hope someday somehow there will be someone who like her as much or even more than me who can win her heart lor... i am getting weary of it le...
i gave my all and this is wat happened... i dunno man... maybe i am just meant to be disappointed a few times before i can be able to wake up... damn heartbroken now... almost like someone took a piece of my heart and throw it into the rubbish bin as i lay there dying in the pain... never felt so much pain before... she mean everything to me. but a bubble eventually have to burst i guess... tried forgetting about her when she and junjie got together but i failed... dunno how i am gonna forget about her now... i think i will never find another person that i care for and like as much ever... sighz...
aRGH~!!!! ARGHHH~!! really feel like screaming on the top of my lungs now... dying on the inside now... i tried and i tried but i guess it's juz not enough... if she were to ask for the star on the sky i would have got it for her... but i guess it does not matter anymore...
ARGHHHHARGHHHHARGHHHH~H!!!!! why is there tears in my eyes? why do i feel so much pain? why is it tat i cant stop crying~!!!! it's totally unlike me~!!! y~!??? y did i have to put everything into this although many frens were asking to forget it.. ?? why? why?? why does she feel the same way i feel about her?? the kiss is for fun?? the times she fell asleep on my shoulders? the late night talks.? dont tat mean ANYthing ??? why cant i cant control the tears??? y cant i bear to accept the fact?? y?~!!! all the pain and agony inside .. it's suffocating me... i always tot that if only i was sincere and persevere enough one day i can finally touch her heart...
it has been close to a yr since i know her... i guess tat's not enough... she's more concerned about being popular? having her flings? i dunno~ really wan to forget her but i cant~!! i dun care about her past... tot we could a create a future together , the 2 of of us.... sighz...argh`!!!
my heart is like getting shredded into pieces....~!!!
somebody somebody~ pls stop this pain..... never wept for a long long time... the last time i wept was also cos of her~!!!!
sighz... this has got to be the saddest thing on earth man... i am so so so disappointed now...
i tot i meant more to her...
finally asked her the question whether she is attached to lawrance or not.. but i guess there's no point also.. cos i am not even worth anything in her heart.. i am just a passerby to her lor... sighz... is it me who assumes too many things?all the postcards, my bday outing, the kiss, the things we did...her holding on to my arm. afterall this i am worth nothing more than a fling at best?
i dun understand why she does not wan to get into a relationship... isnt it natural for someone to wan to be with the person that he/she likes? my only ans to the qn is tat she does not like me...
"i told u right from the start i dun wan a relationship. it's not wad i wan so if i do get tog with u , it'll prob be for a fling. Not in that way anymore"
i cant believe she actually msged tat to me... all this while i tot if i juz perservere i will be able to win her heart and this~! if i do get together with u, it'll prob be for a fling~!!!!!!! wtf~! i am really really disappointed...
she just replied and said tat she does not like me that way anymore..... hope someday somehow there will be someone who like her as much or even more than me who can win her heart lor... i am getting weary of it le...
i gave my all and this is wat happened... i dunno man... maybe i am just meant to be disappointed a few times before i can be able to wake up... damn heartbroken now... almost like someone took a piece of my heart and throw it into the rubbish bin as i lay there dying in the pain... never felt so much pain before... she mean everything to me. but a bubble eventually have to burst i guess... tried forgetting about her when she and junjie got together but i failed... dunno how i am gonna forget about her now... i think i will never find another person that i care for and like as much ever... sighz...
aRGH~!!!! ARGHHH~!! really feel like screaming on the top of my lungs now... dying on the inside now... i tried and i tried but i guess it's juz not enough... if she were to ask for the star on the sky i would have got it for her... but i guess it does not matter anymore...
ARGHHHHARGHHHHARGHHHH~H!!!!! why is there tears in my eyes? why do i feel so much pain? why is it tat i cant stop crying~!!!! it's totally unlike me~!!! y~!??? y did i have to put everything into this although many frens were asking to forget it.. ?? why? why?? why does she feel the same way i feel about her?? the kiss is for fun?? the times she fell asleep on my shoulders? the late night talks.? dont tat mean ANYthing ??? why cant i cant control the tears??? y cant i bear to accept the fact?? y?~!!! all the pain and agony inside .. it's suffocating me... i always tot that if only i was sincere and persevere enough one day i can finally touch her heart...
it has been close to a yr since i know her... i guess tat's not enough... she's more concerned about being popular? having her flings? i dunno~ really wan to forget her but i cant~!! i dun care about her past... tot we could a create a future together , the 2 of of us.... sighz...argh`!!!
my heart is like getting shredded into pieces....~!!!
somebody somebody~ pls stop this pain..... never wept for a long long time... the last time i wept was also cos of her~!!!!
Monday, May 23, 2005
torn
wat am i supposed to react? someone pls tell me ... saw the photos on lawrance's friendster... saw his pics with xiaoyun.. saw his profile.. “now tat i got u...." wat the fuck`!
wat i am supposed to feel? supposed to react?
i really dunno anymore.... all teh pain and agony inside me is killing me... i muz and i will go find out from her... i deserved to know if it's true...
and i tot all was going well..dint wan to push her too hard to a decision.. sigh... like wat i alwasy tell pple cannot be too good to a ger if u like her..but i juz cant not be nice to her... nice guys always die first...
i shall stop my agony and ask her the qn today... no pt letting this drag and making myself more miserable.. i endured once le.. not sure if i can take the blow again or not...but i have to know....
wat i am supposed to feel? supposed to react?
i really dunno anymore.... all teh pain and agony inside me is killing me... i muz and i will go find out from her... i deserved to know if it's true...
and i tot all was going well..dint wan to push her too hard to a decision.. sigh... like wat i alwasy tell pple cannot be too good to a ger if u like her..but i juz cant not be nice to her... nice guys always die first...
i shall stop my agony and ask her the qn today... no pt letting this drag and making myself more miserable.. i endured once le.. not sure if i can take the blow again or not...but i have to know....
Sunday, May 22, 2005
IPPT
went for ippt yesterday with my buddies... realised tat many of us have lost our previous physical fitness.. i was pretty worried bout my shuttle run as my knees were feeling slightly painful when i went to maju camp.. no idea y also.. in the end i run 9.3 secs lar..haha.. so stupid.. i scored 5 pts for all of my 5 stations but in the end i totally flunked my running.. cannot make it alr.. how can i run so slow~!!!i ran 12:41 lar.. damn it..
so slow~!!!
gonna train up le..
anyway today i went to kick soccer with junjie gabriel they all..its was fun.. on the way there xiaoyun called me and chatted a bit.. glad she called cos i was starting to miss her... think i gonna call her later to ask if she wanna hang out together b4 meeting the rest of the union camp councillors in city hall... i think i am getting crazy over her... hahaz.. think i can spend the whole day juz looking at her...
gonna go for run later... muz start training and make myself look presentable.. i am damn fat now.... booo.... hahaz.
so slow~!!!
gonna train up le..
anyway today i went to kick soccer with junjie gabriel they all..its was fun.. on the way there xiaoyun called me and chatted a bit.. glad she called cos i was starting to miss her... think i gonna call her later to ask if she wanna hang out together b4 meeting the rest of the union camp councillors in city hall... i think i am getting crazy over her... hahaz.. think i can spend the whole day juz looking at her...
gonna go for run later... muz start training and make myself look presentable.. i am damn fat now.... booo.... hahaz.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
our first movie
juz had the sweetest time with xiaoyun juz now.. met her at 415pm for movie(kingdom of heaven). she's damn pretty sia.. haha... after tat went to eat at this pasta place in taka near giordano..
damn nice.. walk walk a bit before going to coffee bean to eat cake.. haha... damn shuang.. haha..
in the end after sending her home i asked for a kiss and guess wat? she kissed me~!!!
woohhooooo~!!!!
so over the moon now lar. WO HOOOOOO~!! haha.. gonna slp le tml still have ippt.. dman i hope i get silver.
damn nice.. walk walk a bit before going to coffee bean to eat cake.. haha... damn shuang.. haha..
in the end after sending her home i asked for a kiss and guess wat? she kissed me~!!!
woohhooooo~!!!!
so over the moon now lar. WO HOOOOOO~!! haha.. gonna slp le tml still have ippt.. dman i hope i get silver.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
marketing treat
oh man.. i should have kissed her yesterday~!! there were so many opportunities~!! and i have to be such a cock ~!!! damn ... y am i always so slow in these type of things?
yesterday i went out my xiaoyun. Yar we are supposed to have our marketing treat in the evening so since she wanted to go causeway pt to exchange something , i acccompanied here there. She's damn beautiful i tell u.. couldnt get my eyes off her.. haha.. yar.. at causeway pt she tried on a few outfit and there was this purple tube tat was Da bomb~!! wow~ she look absolutely gorgeous in it...droool...
she bought a tube and a spagetti top tat look very nice on her too... wah lao.. then after that she say she wanna buy bra....WTF.... end up i accompanied her to the bra section... so paiseh sia..
haha... How the hell am i supposed to comment on the BRAS??? hmmm.. nice bra? suits u a lot? wtf~! Woooo tat bra look kinky~? wtf..... haha.. so i tiam tiam walk beside her as she choose her bra.. lolx... Tat's a new experience.. hahaz... *shy*
haha.. anyway causeway pt is quite a cool place juz tat they keep playing the same stupid music~!!! this "lao shu ai da mi" song kept playing until it got on my nerves.~ it was played at least 6 times lar... KAOz...then got techno version also... beh tahan... it's like playing over and over and over again... sheeez~!
oh yar.. and xiaoyun wanted to eat the prima deli waffle and she wan hers to be more chao dar.. so i went to buy then i said to the auntie," auntie shou yi dian"... guess wat the auntie say????
she said" wo mei you mai ban sheng shou de waffle." somethign liek tat..haha.. damn funny lar.. xiaoyun was like laughing her heads out.. haha.. cos she say until she's selling eggs liek tat.. no half boiled eeggs... haha
xiaoyun is so cute when she's laughing .. when i look at her smile it's like i been to heaven and back.. i juz love to c her smile.. bring away all my unhappiness...
anyway was quite disappointed when she said tat she could not make it on friday for our date cos i planned the day swee swee le.. even booked the tickets.. but in the end she say she could meet me in the evening . yar.. to eat then go on our movie treat. i was so overjoyed man~ hahaa...
so after goign to the causeway pt, we went over to clementi to meet wenhui xintian and the rest of the marketing pple.. supposed to go zheng fa huo hai xian.. but in the end hor we realised tat it's closed~!!! reloacted since 2 yrs ago.... wtf..... haha.. and so we proceed to hollang village to eat the XO noodle... On the way there she wrapped her hand around mine... haha.. too bad i was sweaty and stuff so she juz wrap a while then remmove le.. damn~! hahaz.
yar.. after the meal we moved on to brekko for beer haha... then i send her back home..
yar... on the bus back i almost kissed her sia.. for a moment it seems so right... damn.. y did i hestitate...
haha.. totally enjoyed her company as i sent her back..
the only spoiler for the evening is tat this guy called her juz b4 she reached home. #%!#^@^#... but i guess she has the freedom to choose between the few guys that are chasing her now right? just have to prove that i am the one for her lor... no pt being jealous i guess.. but i think she could tell i am a bit bu shuang...
hahaz
haha... starting to miss her already.. feel liek msging her..hahaa. she's most probably preparing ot meet someone else liao... but nah... never mind i shall make friday an unforgettable day for her.... i feel tat i got chance now.. she agreed to go changi viallage with me and seems enthu to go cycling and stuff with me in the future~yay~
jiayou jiayou jiayou
really hope she can get into kentridge...
yesterday i went out my xiaoyun. Yar we are supposed to have our marketing treat in the evening so since she wanted to go causeway pt to exchange something , i acccompanied here there. She's damn beautiful i tell u.. couldnt get my eyes off her.. haha.. yar.. at causeway pt she tried on a few outfit and there was this purple tube tat was Da bomb~!! wow~ she look absolutely gorgeous in it...droool...
she bought a tube and a spagetti top tat look very nice on her too... wah lao.. then after that she say she wanna buy bra....WTF.... end up i accompanied her to the bra section... so paiseh sia..
haha... How the hell am i supposed to comment on the BRAS??? hmmm.. nice bra? suits u a lot? wtf~! Woooo tat bra look kinky~? wtf..... haha.. so i tiam tiam walk beside her as she choose her bra.. lolx... Tat's a new experience.. hahaz... *shy*
haha.. anyway causeway pt is quite a cool place juz tat they keep playing the same stupid music~!!! this "lao shu ai da mi" song kept playing until it got on my nerves.~ it was played at least 6 times lar... KAOz...then got techno version also... beh tahan... it's like playing over and over and over again... sheeez~!
oh yar.. and xiaoyun wanted to eat the prima deli waffle and she wan hers to be more chao dar.. so i went to buy then i said to the auntie," auntie shou yi dian"... guess wat the auntie say????
she said" wo mei you mai ban sheng shou de waffle." somethign liek tat..haha.. damn funny lar.. xiaoyun was like laughing her heads out.. haha.. cos she say until she's selling eggs liek tat.. no half boiled eeggs... haha
xiaoyun is so cute when she's laughing .. when i look at her smile it's like i been to heaven and back.. i juz love to c her smile.. bring away all my unhappiness...
anyway was quite disappointed when she said tat she could not make it on friday for our date cos i planned the day swee swee le.. even booked the tickets.. but in the end she say she could meet me in the evening . yar.. to eat then go on our movie treat. i was so overjoyed man~ hahaa...
so after goign to the causeway pt, we went over to clementi to meet wenhui xintian and the rest of the marketing pple.. supposed to go zheng fa huo hai xian.. but in the end hor we realised tat it's closed~!!! reloacted since 2 yrs ago.... wtf..... haha.. and so we proceed to hollang village to eat the XO noodle... On the way there she wrapped her hand around mine... haha.. too bad i was sweaty and stuff so she juz wrap a while then remmove le.. damn~! hahaz.
yar.. after the meal we moved on to brekko for beer haha... then i send her back home..
yar... on the bus back i almost kissed her sia.. for a moment it seems so right... damn.. y did i hestitate...
haha.. totally enjoyed her company as i sent her back..
the only spoiler for the evening is tat this guy called her juz b4 she reached home. #%!#^@^#... but i guess she has the freedom to choose between the few guys that are chasing her now right? just have to prove that i am the one for her lor... no pt being jealous i guess.. but i think she could tell i am a bit bu shuang...
hahaz
haha... starting to miss her already.. feel liek msging her..hahaa. she's most probably preparing ot meet someone else liao... but nah... never mind i shall make friday an unforgettable day for her.... i feel tat i got chance now.. she agreed to go changi viallage with me and seems enthu to go cycling and stuff with me in the future~yay~
jiayou jiayou jiayou
really hope she can get into kentridge...
Monday, May 16, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
i dun believe i found this gem~! haha.. this was taken on my 21th bday... it was a dare... supposingly i am supposed to go up to this ger and ask her to take a photo with me.. haha.. VICTORY~! haha.. bopian to shuai is like tat de..=P haha.. but it's quite fun lar.. at least it makes me less shy towards ger. i guess?? haha..
The Boldest
hahaa.. cant believe i did what i did yesterday night after the phone call.. hahaa.. i msged her and say.."hey juz wanna say tat i am chasing you too so put me in ur list" haha...never tot i would msg something like tat.. hahaa but really glad tat i did it... cos it allows me to express how i really feel about her ... feel so much better after i msged her.. lolx..
going for malaysia trip later but i have yet to pack.. lolx.. this is going to be one fun and enjoyable trip~! i will make sure it is~!
going for malaysia trip later but i have yet to pack.. lolx.. this is going to be one fun and enjoyable trip~! i will make sure it is~!
the call...
do a ger usually tell u that there's a guy chasing him?
just chatted withher on the phone.. said the swimming captain of the sheares hall is chasing him and stuff . when i say she no internet at home not sian meh? then she say she's been busy.. now no msn alot of pple call her.. sigh..
i am jealous i am jealous... dunno where i stand .. maybe she juz treat me as a good fren? or is it she trying to geik me~？ dunno lar
sighz
just chatted withher on the phone.. said the swimming captain of the sheares hall is chasing him and stuff . when i say she no internet at home not sian meh? then she say she's been busy.. now no msn alot of pple call her.. sigh..
i am jealous i am jealous... dunno where i stand .. maybe she juz treat me as a good fren? or is it she trying to geik me~？ dunno lar
sighz
malaysia trip
went out with xiaoyun last wed and fri... she's sooooo cute~ really enjoyed her company.. boutght 2 shirts... one from zara and 1 from paragon..
she like this white addidas cap a lot.. should i buy it for her? hahaa
anyway going for block trip tml.. haven pack yet... hope i can find a opportunity to clarify a few things..hope i can enjoy my trip there also
dunno wat to bring.. haha
she like this white addidas cap a lot.. should i buy it for her? hahaa
anyway going for block trip tml.. haven pack yet... hope i can find a opportunity to clarify a few things..hope i can enjoy my trip there also
dunno wat to bring.. haha
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