Thursday, August 31, 2006

i cant believe that i forsake 2 very important things just for work today... N up to now i got NOTHING TO DO~! haven even get the Singtel shirt yet.. hmm...
ARGH!


Anyway later will the IBG basketball finals. E blk will be pitting their skills with B blk.. well... It feels weird so far that i haven been participating much with ibg sports this year as i was very involved the past 2 years. I remember myself playing quite a lot of sports last year... Having to sit out for basketball takraw and soccer sucks. But of course i am glad that our blk is winning so far. In fact we had won quite convincing. Our current batch of Yr1 are pretty good in the area of sports and i am pretty sure there are those who are very good in the cultural areas.

gonna have a Handball meeting later in the evening but i have yet to prepare what i want to say. hmm.. maybe i should get down to it now.
suddenly i just miss you a lot... i also dunno y...

Thursday, August 24, 2006

tell me how to control this fiery temper of mine? cos it just keep seeping out even though i feel that i have already controlled my temper a lot le... Maybe it's just me...
Yesterday was Basketball guys and girls for IBG. Both the guys and gers won quite convincingly. For the first time in my 3 years in KR, i had to stand at the sideline and JUST watch the match instead of being one of the players to contribute to the team.
HATE the feeling of being injured...
really hope that i can recover back in time to be able to contribute the way i know best to the team. I know that there are many ways to contribute to the team. But i feel that i contribute best when i am playing...

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

COLLIDE

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Monday, August 21, 2006

Wat an ironic day today is... 21th aug...

我们是两条平行线 再没有任何交叉点


I remember when i was in army. there was a period of time where a series of unfortunate events happened to me. First i injured my ankle during basketball training. then i was removed from the 169th Basic Airborne Course which most of my company went for just because i had medical appt for my ankle on the day of the confirmation of namelist. the ironic part is that my name was in the namelist all along till the last min. For those who dunno, U must have pass the airborne course and get the airborne wing before u can get your red beret.

The thing about army is that if u dint go according to the training program which was airborne course, u have to cover the guard duty and other saikang for those who are attending the course. Of cos i endured the painful moments of seeing my platoon mates getting their red beret when i was still wearing the jockey cap. Let just say that all commandos hold their red beret with pride and this makes me very down during that period of time.

Before long it was the atec period. WE fought and train hard as we want to win the best combat unit honour and march in NDP as guard of honour. all of us gave our best and managed to clinch a recon 1 status for one of our mission with the other 2 at recon 2A. i remember falling into a trench with my mg when i was in a middle of a mission and injuring my knee. then after while waiting for the results to come as to who won the best combat unit, i injured my knee again. Those who injure their knee b4 will know tat it's not a pleasant experience at all.. imagine the joint of your knee coming out of place. It's one of the most painful experience i encountered.

SO the specialist diagnosed that my ACL ligament and my lateral menicus was totally torn. I have to go operation in order to recover and it will be only a 90% recovery. With heavy heart i went for the operation.

dont u realised that sometimes bad news dun just occur once? for my case they rain down on me mercilessly. First i received news that the results for atec was out but wasnt wat u expected. we got the best company and best platoon but we lost the ultimate honour of the best combat unit due to no fault of ours. We lost because apparantly some logistic pple complain to saf hotline about some stuff. about some logistic problem. So in the end we were DISQUALIFIED even though WE WERE MUCH BETTER and had an average of Recon 2A and above.
Shortly after that i receive news that i was being downgraded and being posted out by my S3. It was then that i was really depressed because my OC had previously promised to try to keep me in the unit and upgrade me when i recover.

IT FELT LIKE THE END OF THE WORLD THEN.

this is exactly the feeling i am feeling right now.
first this then tat. I hold only a few things with importance and within a few days i have lost some of it. I dunno how to express this feeling. it makes you understand that we are just weak mortals. it's through all this hardship that makes a man. i understand that.. but it's just so hard...

Friday, August 18, 2006

i am just a weak mortal after all...

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

IRIS

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Words dun mean anything when there is no action to back it up...
I shall make sure that i keep my promises to you...