Life Is Great! =)

2010-02-22T01:31:00.003+08:00

Worried about a friend...

2010-02-20T22:37:00.001+08:00

黄小琥 - 没那么简单

没那麽简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麽简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易才会特别让人著迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

Song that strike a chord with a jaded heart ya?

2010-01-14T12:51:00.002+08:00

Made quite a bit of committment to myself this year. Many small decisions were made so that I will move closer to my dreams.

Gg to Shenzhen, Macau, Hongkong on the 25-31st Jan followed by Bangkok from 2-4 February. Really looking forward to them cos it's been a long long while since I have been travelling! =)

2009-11-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson

it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.We were born to make manifest the glory ofGod that is within us.It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,we unconsciously give other peoplepermission to do the same.As we are liberated from our own fear,Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

2009-09-05T02:48:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt maligned and caught in between situation?
Well that is exactly what happened.

Personally I can empathise with both side because of the different objectives that both ends are trying to attain. I duno what exactly is gg on but wat i felt was that I was accused of certain things even before things were clarified. Something like a "you are guilty unless proven innocent" in which seriously I m not very interested in claiming my stake for innocence cause it just result in more unhappiness. What I dint like was the attitude that I was subjected to which I must say I CAN empathise to some extent.

Although I do not know exactly what was the arrangement I personally felt that no side was wrong however due to some communication breakdown, one party wasnt informed of certain arrangement in which the other party wasnt aware of as well. Well I guess certain good things that can come out of it is that it shows the importance of proper communication towards parties involved.

Also by me venting my frustration on blog just shows that there is still some way to go before I can attain the emotional maturity stated on lesson 14 on SMI. Perhaps I could have handle the situation in a better manner if I dint allow my feelings of being maligned to overcome me and objectively listened before I commented. Well end of the day it just shows that there are still much to learn in my journey towards my success in life. For everything that happened, there is always a silver lining. Instead of focusing on what has happened, I shall attempt to focus on what I can do to better improve myself in the future.

I shall perservere till I succeed!

2009-09-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

FAIL MY IPPT.. Sigh... The rest of the station get 5 also no use lor.

Felt that I dint put in my 100% when jogging today. First 2 rounds was good, 3rd round i started coughing badly then i stop to cough it out.. Subsequently cant find back the momentum to carry me through the 6 rounds... Quite disapointed with my performance today.

Only consolation is that this is my first ippt test in 2 years. All I need to improve is on the mental aspect of the jogging and I am set to pass ippt. The rest of the station was a breeze surprisely given i haven been training for them at all.

3 Times a week training is beckoning. Hopefully I will pass the next one that they have halfway through RT. Also hope to be able to get to know more pple during this RT.

Work

Work has been great. Really convinced that this is the line that I want to be in for the forseeable future. Just did a H1N1 hospitalisation claim 2 months ago as well as a Pregnancy complication claim 5 months ago. I really hope that I will not need to do any death or critical illness claims but I heard from my colleagues that it's a life changing experience to be helping a client do such claim.

Recently have been doing quite a fair bit of investment linked policies. Currently I think that this policy is really something. Especially when it's for young people. Just did one for a client's kid. Power sia. Even if my client pay for next 10 years only it will be able to provide coverage to the child while still accumulating wealth for the rest of his life! =)

Hope that i can improve myself further. Feel that there are many areas that I should brush up.

Health

Been coughing like mad these 1-2 weeks. Getting really irritating and it really affects my mood at times. Hope that it will recover soon. My pi pa gao not working leh =s

2009-08-30T02:41:00.003+08:00

Feel like drinking...

Anyway have been taking RT for the past few weeks. Quite a good training I must say though. Good opportunity for me to lose that excess fats and gain back my fitnes. I miss my old fitness. Shall get it back! IPPT on Thurs, will try my best to pass it!

Time to feel like this once again! anyway the pic was from way back maybe 2006?

2009-08-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

Should I or should i not? hmmm...

Chu(4) Qia(1)? Quite a tempting thought.. better do more research scarly regret...

2009-08-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

What exactly is good service in my line?

I have been pondering about this question over and over again.

After chatting with many pple on this topic i came to a conclusion(duno if universal or not)

Basically sums up to this one word.

SINCERITY...

2009-05-31T02:57:00.002+08:00

I am taking this news harder than I tot i will be...

Life goes on

2009-05-10T00:23:00.002+08:00

Had been troubled lately. With a lot of questions, personal challenges etc

Time and passed and gone, how can I make use of whatever time i have right now to get my dream?

Really need to think of a way to hasten this process

2009-04-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

Why are you doing what you are doing? What motivates you?

Tough question.. been thinking a lot to myself on this question. Interesting questions isnt it? I had quite a lot of answers but i had the problem in the past finding the very one thing that burn deeply inside. Lately after experiencing quite a fair bit of the ups and down of the career, the excitment of being to really benefit the client by helping them plan their finances to the demoralising pekchekness of being "pangsehed" again...

I currently have a list of answers to the questions. Some of the personal, some of the childish, some of them are superficial but ultimately it doenst matter i feel. As long as we know exactly why we are doing what we are doing, there is no reason to fail.

-by the way. I m writing this just to remind myself nv to fall back to the comfort zone, the state of mediocracy. Jiayou Wilson!!

EXAMS

2009-04-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I took my last examination. Today i experienced the same agony that I felt when I was in Year1 Sem1. Was totally lost in the AFP examination.

Unlike the previous papers that I attempted before the exam, this paper has more theory than calculations and I came prepared for tackling tough calculations. WRONG TACTIC!

In the end for some questions I had to resort to intelligent guesses for many of the question. the question are incredibly tough with many tricky questions. Really have to know our stuff fully before attempting.

Shall cross my fingers and hope that when the results comes out next month, I might just get lucky and pass!

Anyway was in NUS the past 2 days (Wed and Thurs) for KR bazaar. Had a booth there to promote our internship program. Feels good to be back in the campus though I feel out of place as all of them look so young!

With all the examination, internship promoting settled behind me, it's time to embark on my primary job, the closings! Next week will be a exciting week for me and I am looking forward to it! Especially since our latest product that was just launched on the 1st April! Looking forward! =)

My tuition kids rocks!

2009-02-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

Got this a few days back during my birthday. Was seriously touched. =)

Sometimes(or rather most of the times), the simple things that one do can really light up another person's life. We tend to forget that a simple msg or a note to wish one happy birthday(applicable to other stuff as well) can mean a lot to the person receiving it. Simple things like replying a msg, actively finding out more about what's gg on in other's life can really mean a lot of difference.

Just blogged this to make sure that I dun forget this. Striving to be a person who can make this difference to the pple i care about, my clients, my pillars of support. Still got lotsa to learn and apply before I can be a better person.

2009-02-03T00:30:00.001+08:00

静茹卢广仲 - 不是我不明白
作曲:林倛玉填词:李焯雄

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

会进来吗
你在送我回家我还在猜测
可都是真的吗
再见面前
一直想象还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友
不再重叠
你的世界
我在边缘

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

男:没说分手
终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过的
女:多少年了(男:多少年了)
我想过能和你一起老的
合:却都有别人了
新的朋友
不再重叠
我的世界
你在边缘
不是我不明白
有些话没说出来
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
女:没刻意掩埋
男:没对他坦白
合:你还在

女:不是我不明白
合:说悲哀并不应该
我们的关怀
像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来
我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨
不是那个未来
女:我们说好的(男:说好的)
男:不会更改的
合:你会在

In love with this song right now. just some random song that i downloaded.

2009-01-24T22:27:00.004+08:00

Random Thought 1:
My tooth is giving me problems again!

Yes. The same one that has given me days and days of looking like a clown back in taiwan. It's back!!! Took some antibiotics hopefully within the next few days it will heal.

Guess its really time for me to go do that root canal treatment that i have been procrastinating...

Random Thought 2:
Anyway just wanna thank those who contributed to my birthday present yesterday. You all rock! =) I will definitely make use of the accessories for future appointments. =)

Random Thought 3:

Project 300 is gg on well. Some revision have to be made as it started a bit slower than expected but so far the result is encouraging.

I really need to force myself to reach office by 830am... Owed a total of 3 breakfasts already and still I tend to reach slightly later!

Random Though 4:

Turning 26 in a matter of days. Looking forward to the challenges ahead of me for this coming year of the OX.
"History shall be kind to me cos I intend to make it." -Winson Churchill-

2009-01-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

Initiating Project 300...

Completion Date 30th June 2009.

3 down.... 297 to go!!! Looking forward! =)

If it's to be it's up to me.!

2008-12-07T15:13:00.002+08:00

By MARIA CHENG,AP Medical Writer AP - Friday, December 5LONDON - When you're smiling, the whole world really does smile with you.

ADVERTISEMENT

A paper being published Friday in a British medical journal concludes that happiness is contagious _ and that people pass on their good cheer even to total strangers.

American researchers who tracked more than 4,700 people in Framingham, Mass., as part of a 20-year heart study also found the transferred happiness is good for up to a year.

"Happiness is like a stampede," said Nicholas Christakis, a professor in Harvard University's sociology department and co-author of the study. "Whether you're happy depends not just on your own actions and behaviors and thoughts, but on those of people you don't even know."

While the study is another sign of the power of social networks, it ran through 2003, just before the rise of social networking Web sites like Friendster, MySpace and Facebook. Christakis couldn't say for sure whether the effect works online.

"This type of technology enhances your contact with friends, so it should support the kind of emotional contagion we observed," he said.

Christakis and co-author James Fowler, of the University of California in San Diego, are old hands at studying social networks. They previously found that obesity and smoking habits spread socially as well.

For this study, published in the British journal BMJ, they examined questionnaires that asked people to measure their happiness. They found distinct happy and unhappy clusters significantly bigger than would be expected by chance.

Happy people tended to be at the center of social networks and had many friends who were also happy. Having friends or siblings nearby increased people's chances of being upbeat. Happiness spread outward by three degrees, to the friends of friends of friends.

Happy spouses helped, too, but not as much as happy friends of the same gender. Experts think people, particularly woman, take emotional cues from people who look like them.

Christakis and Fowler estimate that each happy friend boosts your own chances of being happy by 9 percent. Having grumpy friends decreases it by about 7 percent.

But it also turns out misery don't love company: Happiness seemed to spread more consistently than unhappiness. But that doesn't mean you should drop your gloomy friends.

"Every friend increases the probability that you're at the center of a network, which means you are more eligible to get a wave of happiness," Fowler said.

Being happy also brings other benefits, including a protective effect on your immune system so you produce fewer stress hormones, said Andrew Steptoe, a psychology professor at University College London who was not involved with the study.

But you shouldn't assume you can make yourself happy just by making the right friends.

"To say you can manipulate who your friends are to make yourself happier would be going too far," said Stanley Wasserman, an Indiana University statistician who studies social networks.

The study was only conducted in a single community, so it would take more research to confirm its findings. But in a time of economic gloom, it also suggested some heartening news about money and happiness.

According to the research, an extra chunk of money increases your odds of being happy only marginally _ notably less than the odds of being happier if you have a happy friend.

"You can save your money," Christakis said. "Being around happy people is better."

The above is from yahoo news. Just think that it's really interesting. On the same note it's also the same when it comes to attitude and mindset. Being around positive people will inevitably make us positive as well.

Al Pacino - Any Given Sunday -

2008-12-06T18:09:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.

Now I can't do it for you.
I'm too old.
I look around and I see these young faces
and I think
I mean
I made every wrong choice a middle age man could make.
I uh....
I pissed away all my money
believe it or not.
I chased off
anyone who has ever loved me.
And lately,
I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.

You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is football.
Because in either game
life or football
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.

On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.

I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.

Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.

That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's football guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?

SIMPLY INSPIRING! One of my personal favourite right now as I really think what he say makes lotsa sense.

The INCHES we need are EVERYWHERE... ...

2008-11-28T10:03:00.003+08:00

Just read this new(see below) Amidst the super negativity in this news lately, this is one that is good news to guys out there Anyone interested applicants? Take a number and stand at the back of the queue pls... haha.

Anyway life's been great!

Christmas is near and Taiwanese diva Jolin Tsai makes two wishes - popularity for her new album and a "boyfriend" for Christmas - at her concert press conference in Canada on Nov 25.

At the press conference, Jolin receives a certificate from the Canada Parliament as recognition to her popularity and achievements in the music industry. Canada also extended their warm welcome and well wishes for her concert. Jolin has been hoping to find love and this Christmas, she wishes for a boyfriend. "I hope he is a man who can protect me, neck or nought," she says.

December has always been the golden period for corporate year-end shows. This year, Jolin pushes away these performances invites to concentrate on her new album. "I want to spend more time producing a good album, so I don't think I have much time this year end," she says.
World economy is gloomy and Jolin advises her fans against unnecessary expenditure. "Majority of my fans is still in school, and their parents are their main source of finance, so they should learn to spend less," she advises.

2008-09-25T00:29:00.002+08:00

some random stuff i found on the net.

2008-09-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

have lesser and lesser reason to blog lately.

Cant really bitch out loud, cant complain too much, dun wan to repeat same stuff.

Till another chapter of my life begin shall i blog i guess....

2008-09-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

Dear Universe,

I m kindly ordering 3 new appts a day and $15,000 FYC at the end of the year. I shall do everything that i can without compromising on integrity, my clients interest as price to pay to receive it, no matter how uncomfortable this task will be. I thereby dedicate all my time and effort in the attainment of this goal.
Kindly let me help enough people to take the responsibility upon themselves to transfer their risk away from themselves such that they will be able to protect themselves and their loved one from unforeseen unfortunate events. My promise is that I will do my utmost to make sure I deliver the best that I can to help them achieve their dreams.

Yours Sincerely

Wilson Tham Wei Zheng

==================================================================

Felt so much better after ranting it out.. TMr will be a better day!

2008-09-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

Frustrated... Really need to improve on many things.
Cant seem to get people to see the imptance and urgency which is the reason why I m in this line. Very frustrating when I know i am trying my best.
However i believe that destiny is not by chance, it's a choice. Shall pursue till i succeed!

2008-08-27T17:34:00.003+08:00

What is a difference between a good fren and a fair weather fren?

A good fren is one who u know will be there for you no matter what. Even though u all might not keep in contact for a long time etc. He's a brother/Sister, someone u can confide in. To him/her, you are an important fren.

A fair weather fren is someone who will leave at the first sight of trouble. To him/her, your biz is non of his/her biz.

Which are u?

2008-08-20T01:09:00.002+08:00

If it's to be, it's up to me..
We are constantly held back by our own limiting belief. But if we are able to come to terms that these beliefs are holding us back and that they might not be true, then we can achieve whatever we want. For the mind cannot differentiate between whether our beliefs are false or not.
So instead of instilling ourselves with limiting beliefs why not instill ourselves with beliefs that can spur us to greater heights?! Like adidas slogan, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. but more importantly, we should "JUST DO IT!"

Dare to Dream and Work towards it!

It's funny how something that something that I always been hearing and know can suddenly strike me so hard that it all suddenly make sense now. I guess that's what you meant by "gaining" a knowledge. =)

I will perservere untill i succeed!

2008-08-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Realised that i been wasting a lot of time... SHIT!
NO MORE!

2008-08-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Learnt something from my 2 months of full time that is applicable in all aspect of life. And that is, it dun hurt to just ask... ASK. We have so much fear in asking that we usually keep it inside. However, I realise it's so much easier to just ask instead of having so many questions inside. Guessing and 2nd guessing and fretting and thinking too much all results in accumulated stressed and anxiety. Might as well ask and get it over and done with!

Dun you agree with me?

Also this quote was on my fren's nick recently. That is " i dun know the key to success but i know the key to failure is trying to please everyone". This is something that i really agree with. It's impossible to please everyone. So I believe in living a life with a clear conscious. At long as I dun do anything that's against my principle or do something with an intention to harm someone, it's enough.

Life is simple, it's pple who make it difficult. do you agree?

2008-08-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

the greatest glory in living

lies not in never failing,

but in rising every time we fail.

-nelson mandela-

Saw this quote from a fren's post. Like it very much. Very related to my line and the experience i have in some areas of my life =)

INSPIRING!

2008-07-26T00:48:00.002+08:00

Went lunch with huiching and shan shan today.. While waiting for someone who was late(no present for guessing who she is), we went kino to kill time. Saw this book about " how to get ger" or watever one.. anyway the point is one of the points mentioned inside was that Guys must challenge the female in certain way in order intrigue them.

Huiching and shan shan agreeed with this... Ie U cant be nice to a ger u like. cos they will think you are irritating. haha.. So all guys should just be bastards ya? =P

Work is getting on track. Been packing myself with appts. Shall go do street prospecting, door knocking just for the experience! =)

2008-07-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

Congrats to all frens who successfully graduated! =) It's been a honour "studying" with you all. May all of you be successfully in your chosen career path.

I shall be the next Candie and Jasmine in my agency!!

2008-07-09T00:18:00.001+08:00

Believe~! Think positive!
Feeling the momentum building up in me! Very motivated to go work everyday le hoho!

2008-06-27T19:03:00.002+08:00

Been feeling stressed out these few days. Keep thinking that i am not doing enough to pursue my target. MUST JIAYOU!

Went for appt in NUS today and decide to meet ron and company for dinner. But alas my appt end at 5.30 pm like that while they meet at 730pm... So while waiting for Ron to finish playing Takraw(fake pro), went through some policy documents as well as check out some wu yue tian songs on youtube. Posted a few songs tat i really like. Particularly like the hokkien one. Although it's a very old song1 first heard it in taiwan during the wo cai show..

Looking forward to maintaining a busy schedule with more appts and course to attend in the future!

Mayday Wu Yue Tian 五月天 - 志明与春娇 [hokkien]

2008-06-27T19:02:00.001+08:00

志明真正不知要按怎
为什么　爱人不愿阁再相偎
春娇已经早就无在听
讲这多　其实拢总拢无卡抓
走到淡水的海岸　两个人的爱情
已经无人看　已经无人听　啊
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止　你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉　麦阁伤心
麦阁我这爱你　你不爱我
志明心情真正有影寒
风这大　你也真正拢没心肝
春娇你哪无要和我播
这出电影　咱就走到这位准嘟煞
走到淡水的海岸　两个人的爱情
已经无人看　已经无人听　啊
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止　你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉　麦阁伤心
Music
走到淡水的海岸　两个人的爱情
已经无人看　已经无人听　啊
我跟你最好就到这

五月天-而我知道

2008-06-27T18:44:00.001+08:00

而我知道

作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信

冰塊　還沒融化　你在看錶　我　笑的尷尬
你說　最近很忙　改天聊吧

那天　我在樓下　想了很久　想　你說的話
你說　愛情很窄　世界很大 (而我們應該長大)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我想我　聽懂你　話中的話

而我知道那真愛不一定能白頭到老
而我知道有一天你可能就這麼走掉
而我知道我知道這一切我全都知道
我就是受不了

而我知道我們曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放開手但不知道怎麼忘掉
而我知道你走了以後的每一分一秒
卻還是這麼難熬

微笑　緊緊咬牙　給你祝福　你　自由飛吧
你說　溫室沒有　燦爛的花 (你總是很有想法)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧
我同意　可是我　淚如雨下

2008-06-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

PEK CHEK!!!

There is a reason why I dun like to go back from work early i guess...

2008-06-25T03:26:00.004+08:00

Uploaded some photos that we took in taiwan!! Love it!

Quite happy today cos today i managed to do quite a lot of productive things tat move me ahead to my target. Although I am still far from achieving it, it's still a good step towards my dream!

Kudos to boss for his help! Really think that my boss is really a very good one!

Finally decided to post some photos of my grad trip on facebook. Dint want to for various reasons. (too many photos, i look ridiculous in many, etc etc) Really miss taiwan n the times we had at taiwan man. Although it was short it was really enjoyable and memorable while it lasted. Really hope that we have chance to go somewhere together after we startd working.

Anyway Zohan was good!! Glad that I decided to watch it. =)

2008-06-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

spent the past 3 hrs emoing in the park downstairs. A lot of uncertainty in my life and i was having problems coping with them. Really grateful for those who bothered to listen. Anyway i come back feeling like a changed man.

Been constantly asking myself what i want in life. Why should i strive hard for.. Got my answer le. I want to achieve financial success so that I can be able to take care of my loved one and enable them to achieve their dreams and enjoy the good things in life that they deserved. There was a period of time where nothing really seems to matter much. As in why do I need to pursue and work so hard for? Cant find a definite purpose to the things that I do. spent a good 3 hrs sitting at one of the stools in the park thinking of the answer. Yup. Glad that I finally sorted out my thoughts.

As a reminder to myself i just want to pen down my thoughts in this entry so that i will have a reference to refer to in event when I am feeling down again.

GOALS 2008.

Achieve $20,000 fyc by end December 2008

GOAL 2010.

Have the option to buy my BMW 3 Series Coupe 335i Highline (A)

Current price $248,800
Instalment $2,398/mth

Installment figures are based on the monthly sum to be paid on a loan amount of 90% of the vehicle listed price over a period of 10 years. Interest rates are assumed to be at a flat rate of 2.85%.

2008-06-20T02:02:00.002+08:00

Talked to my bro about our line of work just now.. really gain some insights on wat i nid to do...
also i think my presentatioon not up to my own standards yet. still stammering at points... GG to practice more!!

for now i m looking forward to seeing the guys at robin's place this sat.. very long nv catch up le.

Was sharing with a fren about how i think hall makes u lazy just now.. LAzy to go learn driving, meet pple, etc.. (okay maybe it's just me.. i can stay and relax one corner in my rm the whole day) I tink i m much more motivated now tat i am out of hall..! want to achieve a lot of things..!! driving license, my first car, experience life etc.. first target: my driving license. finally started learning after 5 yrs of break on this sunday hoho..

There are some stuff that keeps replaying in my head after chatting with a certain someone some time back. She said" you say you are her good friend yet you dunno what she like?", " you like duno what you wan " etc... What i wanna say is thanks! Kind of a wake up call. I know know what I want now. and how i m gg to achieve it.! Tat's y i like talking to you somehow although you can be super blunt but tat's what i want to hear, honest and straight to the point. I wish you all the best in ur career and also your issues with your parents. Eventually they will give u their blessings =)

2008-06-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

GG reservist tmr~ Looking forward to meeting my frens after such a long time but then i got 3 mths outpatient leave so i guess i wont be staying there for long. prob stay for the morning then can leave le.

Looking back at my shirts and uniform. WOW... I really grew a lot man..!

Wish me luck.

Anyway I m really glad for my fren who have a series of good news happening to her sia!CONGRATS! and also just wish my fren who is facing some problems with parents about her marriage all the best! i m sure ur parents will understand and give their support once they see that both of u are really very determined and serious about this!

2008-06-13T16:42:00.002+08:00

I WILL ACT NOW!...

Been reading this phrase for a long time yet I only know how to procrastinate... NO MOre.....
Felt the pain le. for acting too late i had paid the price for some stuffs.

ie lost a few hundred dollar(possibly thousands) cos i procrastinated and called my client too late..

OUCH....

OUCHH...

Wont procrastinate anymore. I know what I want and I will do everything i can to achieve it... talked to Adele yesterday and she kinda make me understand my shortcomings. I am gg to try harder!

2008-06-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

Voiceless Screaming

music: Taiji
words: Toshi

I'm drowning in sadness,
falling far behind,
I feel there is no way out.
Is there anyone there? Where am I?

Insanity and loneliness,
tear my painful heart.
Broken heart keeps on going to beat,
but it never stops bleeding.

I've been waiting for love to come,
someone who wants to touch me deep inside.
Memories of my yesterdays,
careless words and deeds,
masquerade of love.
Got to find my way out of here.

I was blinded by dark desire,
over time, I've been through it all.
I'm crying my share of tears
What can I do,
will I make it through
I must be true to myself

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.

Voice of faith, now I'm starting to realize,
now my eyes can see,
I have gone so far.
I'm feeling breath of life.

And I'm looking for love to reach
someone I want to touch deep inside.
Light shines on my sight of doubt
don't be afraid,
move forward one step,
willing mind is what I have found at last.

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.
Voiceless screaming, calling to me, inside of my heart,
knocking on my souls door.
I believe in myself and trust what I do.
Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my souls door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.

2008-06-08T17:03:00.002+08:00

and so i m officially gg to go office and chiong tmr.... Kinda dread doing it but oh well.. THings need to be done!!

Really enjoyed my trip with my batch pple.. went taiwan and hk for 17 days.. Shall upload some photos when i feel like it.

Things needed to be done now.:

1. Get my essentials into my laptop. All my resumes etc all gone cos laptop crashed
2. Renew PDL and apply for driving lessons
3. Dental appt on monday
4. Reservist. Have to call company line to enquire what to do with my status letter.
5. Bookbind my FYP
6. Get back my phone contacts
7. Give gift that i bought to pple.
8. Fix a final year outing for E blk
9. Fix a photo trading sessions for those who went grad trip with me
10. Get CFA?
11. get more appts for my insurance

Seems like life is gg to be packed with stuff to do!! =)

2008-05-14T11:44:00.003+08:00

Woke up to a nightmare this morning. I m so glad it is only a dream. But i guess the positive that i can take out of this nightmare is that there are some stuff in which matters more to me than i had initially imagined... Must Must Must jiayou!

Also a bit of reflection, I think I got to have more actions to back what I say.

2008-05-13T23:37:00.008+08:00

View of the toilet

My favourite cubicle. Much better than my yr1's where there is insects flying around.

View just outside the 7th floor toilet

Pantry

Roof top swing, where i will come have a swing when i feeling emo.

Eblk lift!

7th Floor lift lobby

This way to our rm!

My Corridor where it is always flooded cos of Ron's aircon

7th floor long wing

My room for 07/08 E702.

corridor leading to my rm

I think the view from my rm is superb! good to look out and daze.

b4 shifting.

Shifting in progress

My room restored back to its original state.. =(

Shifting out for good.

Finally its time to take a bow and leave hall for good. Spent a good 4 years in hall. Experienced ups and downs during my stay there. My first IBG, IHG, playing Mario for 1 year plus, my first gf, buanging my results, good progress award, buang my knee, fed maggi to my laptop, getting drunk for the first time, sneaking to sentosa(come on.. go sentosa also must sneak one meh) super early in the morning, shouting NTU hall 2 when in sentosa, playing with chicken during orientation camp, Seeing my 6 packs evolve into one big lump of fats, Picking up handball which i am super passionate about, winning IBG(yawn), not winning IHG Handball b4 (a big big regret of mine), popping into fren's rm to chate at wee hours of the night etc etc

Made a lot of great friends along the way and given the chance to choose whether to stay, I will most definately choose staying again!

On another note, cant wait to go taiwan for grad trip with the rest on the 15th may!!! =)

2008-05-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

From the horoscope in Facebook

Wilsonz,
You tend to get over-emotional about ideas and ideologies at a time like this, letting feelings get the upper hand over good sense. Try not to blow a difficult situation out of proportion today. You are starting to focus too much of your attention on the consequences. Be confident that you will come out on top.

hmm... point noted.. Last paper tmr. totally no mood to study.

2008-05-04T19:37:00.002+08:00

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen uhm ooh ooh ooh yeah

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Wow this song is really quite nice. Thanks to xintian for sending me!

2008-05-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

TOKYO - A Japanese civil servant was demoted for logging more than 780,000 hits on pornographic Web sites on his office computer over nine months, an official said Friday.

The man, a Kinokawa city government employee in western Japan, visited porn sites from June 2007 to February 2008, city official Tomiko Waki said. The man's name was withheld.

City officials said the number of hits discovered on his computer's internal log was so high in part because one click on certain types of pornographic sites registers multiple hits.

Despite his frequent porn viewing, none of his colleagues noticed his activities, which he apparently conducted throughout the workday.

"Each desk is set apart from each other," Waki said, adding that the man logged 170,000 hits on porn sites in July alone.

The man's supervisors discovered his extensive porn site visits after his computer became infected with a virus, prompting officials to examine his Web browser's history.

Along with the demotion, he received a 20,000 yen (US$190; ?122) monthly pay cut, Waki said.

Wah that guy win already..!! Anyway went to watch Ironman with Darren today! Superb! it is better than i expected(i expect it to be a flop). tried out KimGary HK cafe after tat. Not too bad quite nice quite nice.

Gyming quite a bit recently. I shall target to lose 3kg before my trip! haha cos go taiwan/hk sure gain wt one.. looking forward to my massage, farm stay, hot spring, shopping, I GUESS show etc!

2008-04-30T00:52:00.003+08:00

Watched bruce almighty just now on my laptop. Wow... Even after watching it the 2nd time i still think it's a damn good show... Really like the show for the meaning of the show and the hilarious performance by Jim Carrey. Not forgetting chio bu Jennifer Aniston. If you were to have the power to do anything that you want, what will you do?

On another note, i think i am secretly a Ah beng inside. haha.. got this sudden urge to go mambo. really want to check out St James Powerhouse.. Nv been there. Feel so sua ku. hahaz. " I hate myself for loving YOU!! cant break Free from the Things that you DO~~ " " Ohhhhhh~ Square Rules`~~~" " Call me Call me~ Baby wont u call me now~~" "Cos I m DYing INside TO HOLD U" - do u know?-

10th April 2008 Tiger Brewery Trip.

2008-04-29T18:47:00.005+08:00

Decide to post some photos on the alumni tiger brewery trip which was held on the 10th April. Had my submission on the 11th so i initially dint want to go (even though i am the chairperson) but decided last minute to just go show face. glad i did!!

Dint managed to drink a lot(1 or 2 glass) cos i had to write my fyp report after this event. hahaz. the turnout was kinda disappointing to me as i had plan for 100. many pple backed out last min but oh well.... those who stayed enjoyed themselves!

SAmual is obviously drunk. A blk photo.

Wat is jamie doing sia... haha.
Rina Lai.aka lao Chio. Our Miss KR =)

Vincent Gan. Fellow Insurance agent. Got lots to learn from u man!

GRoup Photo for the day.

E blk photo.. with albert looking damn cock. "P

Lixuan and jiemin.

Jin-a-ling and jiemin are REd sia.. Cos Lixuan act guai dint drink much.

I think this photo is damn funny. Wat is that packet of cards doing on jinling's head. Magic sia.. hahahahahahaaa....

Proudly presented by KR Alumni Secretariat Com 2007/2008. (J lo extra in this pic) Thanks to Albert for his planning and coordination!

The tortoise herself.

E blk rocks.!

Stupid Lixuan took photo of me rushing my fyp while waiting for the main crowd to finish touring the brewery and come into the tavern. So unglam photos.. thanks ar tortoise.

2008-04-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

My NUS is gg to be over soon... =(

2008-04-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

Feel like I m pursuing a lost cause again. =(

2008-04-25T13:22:00.005+08:00

Haven been blogging for a period of time already. Just suddenly feel like writing . Just had HR2002 paper yesterday. I must say that I really agree with some of my friends who mentioned that this module no nid to study because the qns are really open ended.

There is this qn that is of particular interest to me. "Find a job that you love and you never have to work a single day of your life".Personally I really agree with this statement. I guess when you find a job that you like, you can go through whatever shit is thrown at you. Really hope that all my friends will find a job that they love soon =)

E blk FInal Year Gathering 22nd April

I organised our first E blk Fyp 07/08 dinner outing on 22nd April. I must say that the turnout is really quite encouraging for me to organise more in the future. Although a few of them could make it due to training and lessons, we really had a lot of fun talking about the past. A particular person whom i shall not mention names. Really made me nostalgic. Anyway the dinner was held at our usual XO fish head soup place in Ginza area and our hall resident of the year Mr(Future Prof) Tan Teck Yong treated us! =) Hope that there will be plently of future outings where all of us can come together and catch up on old times when we graduate. Gg to really miss hall and all my friends.

First Group photo taken! The quality of the photo is not as good because it is taken with Alvin's handphone. Next time i will bring a camera(when i buy one). When we asked this passerby to take photo for us, some of us were considering the possibility of the person running off with Alvin's phone and preparing to run after him. We have such biases man.! I shall not disclose the race of the person whom we asked him to help us take photo. Guess yourself. haha. But he's really nice to stop and help us take though!! so.. kudos to him

WE will Rock You Concert. 27th March 2008.

We will Rock You Concert is really very good. It's the first time that I watch a proper musical other than the hall based one. No offense to the hall based one which i think is pretty good but THIS is something!! The singing rocks and i enjoyed it so much that i bought the CD with the soundtrack. Damn nice! Thanks Huiching for organising and helping us get the tickets.

Kushinbo

Went to Kushinbo with the PRU gang recently. it's been like 4 years since i went kushinbo. Really wanted to go check it out. Was kinda disappointed with it actually cos i prefer the old concept where you can order whatever you want. it has become very sakura buffet style. There is no Unagi which i love also. However the company made up for it and we had fun taking photos andtalking rubbish. They tried askago(snail) which i dint cos i am scared i get rashes again. I had food allergy the last time i tried it. Not sure if it's the snail but its better to play safe. I promise Elaine to bring her there since year 1 but up to now still haven go there yet. Lol. Soon okay soon! After exams we go!

2008-04-06T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Chorus: So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old

So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
To the place where I belong,

Chorus

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah

http://youtube.com/watch?v=j_-9q9xcsJ4

After 4 yrs of hall life, we are really all gg home le. counting down my days in hall. =(

Stressed about fyp.. hope i can finish by tues. so that i can show the prof my work

I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

2008-03-28T22:25:00.001+08:00

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

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My Chemical Romance voice is damn nice!! Shili send me this song tat day. totally got addicted to this song.. Wished I can sing like this. =(

Test Your Awareness: Do The Test

2008-03-25T05:53:00.001+08:00

Was taking a break from doing fyp and decided to blog surf. Saw this interesting video on Xintian's blog.

Felt that it's quite interesting. Arent we all guilty of letting things pass us by just because we were too focus on certain aspects of our life?

Simple video like this makes u reflect on life doesnt it? Appreciate what you have instead of complaining about what you dont. =)

2008-03-25T03:56:00.001+08:00

To pple who read my blog..

Pls be nice and help me do my survey on the impact analysis of real time transit information k?

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=JXU_2fTf5RCxjs3w4xhwPhsg_3d_3d

thanks a million.

Been doing fyp for some time. Found out a lot of new ideas to write just that I just cant seems to organise it properly.

Have hard time starting on the lit review part

2008-03-11T13:24:00.003+08:00

I barely slpt 6 hrs the past 2 days. lol. freaking tired now but gt work to do.

Had to rush out to meet a client who decided to alter her policy. For some reasons there is a lot of hiccups doing up her policy but i guess that's a good news for me as I was able to pick up a lot of things along the way. Now ai zai le muahaha.

Tuition at 5pm before I can come back for a rest.

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Hall production.

Personally i felt this yr production wasnt fantastic. Not because of the cast or what but rather the story as a whole. However there were fantastic moments like the youtube and Today News part. Particularly enjoyed that a lot.

I realised that I have watched all 4 productions while in hall. Must say that Memories of The Red Autumn was the best production among the 4. With outstanding props to interesting plots and good acting. However the one I feel for the most got to be Morning glory. I think that it was one of the most enjoyable one! The people involved in it were very fun and happening pple and I really enjoyed working with them.

2008-03-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

Is it possible to feel lonely in a crowd?

Anyway been really busy with work. Deadlines and Deadlines due next week. 1 Presentation, 1 reflection paper, 1 project. Then it will be catching up on work! so not looking forward =s

Hall production I feel is not very good. I think that the previous years were much better. Although there were moments where it was funny but when compared with the previous years, it isnt outstanding at all.

2008-03-05T02:49:00.004+08:00

Guess what my tuition kid and his sister bought me when i went for tuition today? A box of condoms.. OMG... hahah

I was like so DIAO! But well i think they are a bunch of cute kids lol.

Will you be scared if a dog this size were to approach you when u are standing out the gate? This is what happens to me every time i go tuition. But the dog is damn cute actually. Doesnt bite and apparently likes me a lot. Duno why. (maybe cos Shuai) LOL

PS: The dog is HUGE. Man size. Probably bigger than Pearline when he were to stand on two legs.

Waiting for my tuition kid to come open the door for me.

Anyway the reason why i am finally able to post pictures on my blog is because i just bought a new phone!! FINALLY! Nokia 6500 Slide. Think i got myself a good deal as I was aiming for this phone since quite some time back just that i dint want to buy because my contract wasnt 21mth yet. At first it was $238, but when i wanted to buy a few days ago there was this one week promotion selling it at $118.!! $120 savings! Of cos i buy right? Lol

On another note. This week is gg to be hell. Esp Tmr. Jam Packed. Project meeting, Exams, Project meetings. All the way till 12pm still have to do project i think =s

Cant wait for next thurs. =)

2008-03-01T16:03:00.002+08:00

My com did it again.!!!!

Sigh..

SIGH

SIGHHH..............

out of the blue the com cannot detect my local profile( the one i use to log in into my com) and gave me a temp profile instead. Tat means. Favourites lost, then all the documents in my original profile nt in my desktop must go adjust etc...

=s

On a different note, fyp submission is on 11th april and i am still far from completing... Must buck UP!

2008-02-24T17:13:00.004+08:00

Happy belated 25th Bday bro.... Hoped you had a good bday amidst the quiz u had.

It was nice meeting up with ya just to catch up.. All the best to ur fyp!

Yesterday session at Stamford's place was superb... The only pity is tat we dint really take much photos.. WIth good food, texus holdem and the all addictive 8 console Winning Eleven, its no wonder it is such a great success! His dog was damn cute as well. Makes me feel like getting one also though i know definately that i will have no time to take care of it when i graduate and start to work...

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Been really stress of late thinking about what i want to do and about future as a whole... There just seem to be so many unknown. Many issues like should i downgrade cos of my knee( and risk beening thrown to be a storeman and serve foreveeeeerr) or serve finish(must freaking train up. hope my knee can take it), how to get more appts, how to convince my parents of my decision, how to return laptop loans, how to pay back Tuition loans etc etc etc..

2008-02-24T03:11:00.003+08:00

Shamelessly KOPPED from Lian's Blog.. haha.. (u nv say copyrighted ma)
Try it out!! quite fun!

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

2008-02-16T16:09:00.001+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
i love peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!

This is my favourite song at the moment!!!

2008-02-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

FreAK! Cant stop sneezing and coughing...ARGH!

Anyway this week is going to be a mugging week. have to hand up a essay on 21st Feb. =s

2008-02-02T02:31:00.000+08:00

Having grad trip woes....

Firstly i Really REALLY want to make this grad trip a really different and enjoyable one.

My first choice of venue will be EUROPE! but it's such an expensive place to go and thus many of my frens are very adversive about gg there. Hmm..

Then Japan.. I feel like gg also but hmm.. kiv

Then Taiwan, most of my hall frens seems to be inclined to go there. I dun mind gg there to explore too but somehow i dun wan it to be my ONLY destination for travel.

Actually i dun mind travelling around south east asia! cos our money is bigger than can live like a king while exploring the dif places.. =ssss HOW!!

SO MANY Options... !

FOr me personally i think the company counts a lot too.. hmm... I tink will just go plan for europe and c how.. cos there dun seem to be a confirmed group anywhere.... work out a budget then jio frens seems like a good plan.

2008-02-01T23:15:00.001+08:00

Best bday celebration that i had so far. =)

2008-01-30T17:09:00.000+08:00

i love my new Liverpool FC Jersey! MUAHAHAHA!!!YNWA..=)
Thanks to all who bought this jersey to me. my first liverpool jersey! haha..

thanks to my frens who treated me to flaming and waterfall on sat as well. shall upload the photos to my blog soon!

-you never walk alone.!-

2008-01-26T05:09:00.000+08:00

still cant believe that we actually got knocked out from semis...

After all our hardwork and effort, We still dint managed to go semis...

It's really a long time since i have felt this amount of disappointment. cant help thinking of it... I guess with higher expectations, you have higher disappointment. Wish that somehow things could be dif... We can argue that the ref calls were bad etc.. but eventually nobody will remember the bad calls, they will only remember who won.

Hate this feeling that i am experiencing now. I guess I m not that strong after all... I always tot pple who cry after match are a bit drama but now i can totally relate to it. The kind of disappointment and despair at losing the game because you lack the element of luck.

premature end of season.

2008-01-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

So today marks the end of my IHG season as a KR player... really disappointed now...

(warning this might be biased)
I understand that referee's job is a tough one but to consistently give bad calls for 2 matches is just ... bad calls for today include 2 penalty, 1 or 2 (2mins) foul, and a out ball that was not given which caused one goal. That is a total of 3 goals and counting cos we conceded a few goals cos we were 1 man down.

Also today my shooting were super off. No strength in the shot at all... perhaps it got to do with the fact that i am carrying a knee injury into the game.. injured my knee slightly at the KR TH match in which we won 19-18. i just dun seem to be able to throw the ball hard enough. Also not very accurate which results in many miss shots. Think it affected my confidence a lot.

This is my last year playing IHG le and I really felt that we were able to win this IHG GOLD as we really had a strong team.. Overall I felt that we played well despite the lost though we fail to capitalise on our lead. Also there is an element of inexperience too as at some point of time we were panicking even though we should not be..

ARGHHH... Really really disappointed. We made history by being the first handball kr team to not qualify for at least a SEMIS... SIGHH......

Tattered and torn. Bruises all over. Hip, elbow palm. both knee pain. But still lost...=( the last shot that i made should be a penalty.... =( freaking open then suddenly i am in the air and fall on my side... SIGGHGHHGHHHH

2008-01-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

男人 ktv - 胡彦斌

前奏才刚刚响起
就有人哭红了眼睛
唱着他们的订情曲
对不起提了你的伤心过去
一堆男人下了班不回去
十几个人坐在ktv
唱着青春随风远去的回忆
说这年头还有什麽让我们动心
男人歌
唱给谁来听
下一首
有没有你心情
我和你吻别在无人的街
张学友唱出我的情结
男人歌
唱给谁来听
下一首
有没有你心情
你的背包让我走的好缓慢
陈弈迅那首歌
是唱的他自己
男人歌
原来唱的都是不敢说的心情

Been listening to this song quite a lot.. Really nice! You peeps should download it. I will definately sing this during the next ktv session.. Craving for ktv now... Anybody interested in ktving?

2008-01-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for a long time. Been really busy with a lot of stuff.

Fyp, courses, alumni stuff, IHG, tuition etc.. It's kinda taking a toil on me.

This semester i am gg to take 23MCs worth of modules. Fyp, Foundation Engineering, Engineering Economy, HR2002 and reproductive health. But the thing is there is still no confirmation with regards to my appeal for thurs slot for reproductive health. Really hope that I will get it as it's my last semester in NUS.

Really have to mug my ass off this semester. Wonder how I am able to cope as I still have alumni stuff to settle. A few things are still left hanging there. Have to go settle soon.

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Had a bad training today. Kinda sian about it. Just hope that future trainings will be better. The thing is sometimes I dun think that I did anything wrong but well... I guess it's just one of the days where the team is playing badly and we get frustrated easily. Just hope that this training will not affect the team morale...

你是我的眼

2008-01-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

周杰伦最长的电影我很忙新专辑

2007-11-21T01:06:00.001+08:00

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

Start to like this song more and more... it's such a sad tune isnt it?

2007-11-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

Disappointment is a difficult pill to swallow.

Just did a really stupid thing during a 25% test! I managed to totally FAIL TO DO ONE QUESTION COS I DINT KNOW IT WAS THERE! Sigh.. How can i be such a muddlehead!

The thing is i was pretty sure i completed everything and was trying to check my ans.

Sigh. WTH... careless to the maximum.. really very very disappointed with myself at this present moment. Although my frens said that the last question is tough but still... I rather try and fail than not try at all..

DISAPPOINTED@@!@@@!!!

周杰伦蒲公英的约定我很忙新专辑

2007-11-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

蒲公英的约定
作词：方文山　作曲：周杰伦
小学篱芭旁的蒲公英　
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一坚持的任性
在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行
一起长大的约定　
那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情

Shamelessly taken off my fren's blog

2007-10-29T23:45:00.001+08:00

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the story of the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things thatare important to you. "Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Takecare of the golf balls first --- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

2007-10-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

These 2 photos are prove that i got JIE MEI! NAH MASTER KHOR! haha..

Went to have my fortune seen recently by maater khor. Most of the things he say are very accurate sia. Good things and bad things. Hope that i can improve on those bad things and the good ones will come true. Although i let my fortune be told but i believe that ur destiny is controlled by urself.. Must fight for wat i want =)

Went out with shan shan , cheryl and huiching in this impromptu outing to marina for steamboat buffet as well as drinking session after tat. Impromptu becos shan jioed at 2 plus 3. meet at 6 liek tat. super last min!

Glad i met up with them cos really had quite a lot of fun. =)

Busy sem ahead!

2007-10-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a rewarding week so far. I took up the responsibility of being the alumni secretariat chair not so long ago. I must admit initially i was very hesistant as i am already a fyf and have to handle quite a lot of things like appts, courses, fyps and of cos my studies. Slowly but surely i have been pulling my cap up these past few semesters. want to make sure that i at least graduate with a honours degree. However i realised that i feel strongly for KR(dun ask me y) and i want to make the kr alumni a strong and happening group that is constantly in touch with the happenings of hall.

Successfully held my first meeting with the committee members today. i must say that i am really glad that i have a capable jcrc in charge as well as a responsible vice who takes initiative. Feel that we work well together. Had a hard time choosing my members as i feel a lot of them are quite up to the job but i am very satisfied with my choice of members so far =) Have a lot of ideas for the alumni comm but i shall be realistic and try to achieve what i can during my term ...

went for saving needs course in GE just now. Felt that it's really useful as it allows me to have a better understandin of the various instruments that we are working with. After the course went for recre with some of the handballers. I think we should really play more such games together as i felt that i learned quite a lot during the recre just now in terms of what i am lacking as well as new ideas on how to attack. Shall be working on my weakness and strive to be a more complete player by the time IHG comes.

Load of work to be done. I guess i still like the feeling of being busy such that free time seems extra precious.

2007-10-13T02:55:00.000+08:00

I need to lose wt, I wan to lose wt, I must lose wt... Argh..

Getting as slow as a tortoise le. Many actions that were possible for me in the past cant be done due to the extra baggage that i am carrying..

Can pple pls jio me for more jog etc??

2007-10-04T01:32:00.000+08:00

A fren of mine finally blogged like FINALLY..

quoted from him
ever have this feeling of not feeling appreciated????I mean u feel u ve done alot, u feel that u haf tried in ur own way to do ur best for ur grp or sth???
yet at the end of the day ur reward is someone coming up to u n says "hey I think U haf slacked, U realli shouldnt haf been so inactive, muz b proactive mah"OR "i think u are taking things for granted, I dunno why U r always lidat, wait for things to happen"Well well well ppl are hard to please...... and there's a great tendancy for others to judge U esp when they're involved in it

hmm.. interesting...

2007-10-02T04:19:00.000+08:00

Went back to office today. Initially i was pretty reluctant as i wanted to do my school work. But i felt that the trip back to office was really really worth it.

I think the more i talk to chuan the more i respect him and want to emulate him. Basically i guess for some of my frens they will know that i am not a very motivated person by nature. I love to slack. But after talking to chuan, he always manage to bring me to the right direction. I mean i have been procrastinating about some issues with regards to insurance but after the session with him, it's become clear to me what i wanna do etc.
Just as what the Thesis says, the elephant is bounded by the chain becos it is conditioned to assume that it is unable to break free from the chain. I too must break free from my limitations before i can achieve what i want.
by helping enough pple to succeed in life you will succeed =) I shall strive to do that =)

2007-09-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to get some work done yesterday. Compiled the fyp findings.

Just watched this showed called Love Guaranteed. It's a HK drama that takes place in an insurance settings. Really like the show as it is really rewarding to watch the struggles of the insurance agent as i can relate to it a little. The story is really touching as well. Especially when the father contracted Cancer and refused to go for treatment and then left his house. The frantic search for him by the kids etc... Pretty touched.

Noticed that my parents are getting old le. Must learn to treasure them more.

Also really disappointed that i have to cancel the meeting with my friend today becos of an oversight on my part. To think that i was the one who suggested meeting.. =( Dint realised that it's jiemin's bday today.. Promised her long ago that i will be there. Sigh.. Must really write all the important dates on my thesis if not keep repeating this mistake.

2007-09-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

msn has been getting very cranky nowadays... Getting on my nerves sia..

Hopefully there will be good response for handball tmr. Been facing all sorta funny issues recently. seriously think that A blk eventually will the powerhouse for handball in Kr. There is a serious lack of jioing (or so i think) from the other blks... For tat i am pretty disappointed but i guess it will improve after the trials(i hope)

Been having trouble getting help for my fyp. think that this is a bad time. everybody is busy and all.. =s

Nostalgic

2007-09-17T01:41:00.000+08:00

Sigh... uploaded some old photos from my brother camera into my computer just now. Feeling really nostalgic right now. Missed the old days where i went HK with the handballers. Really had a lot of fun doing nonsense and enjoying playing against good opponents.

It's always fun playing with pple that share the same passion as u. Although we dint really know each other b4 the trip, during the trip all of us became good frens and did a lot of havoc stuff together.!

Dun really think that i will have the chance to go again this year. Cos graduate le.. Should be going for my grad trip instead.

2007-09-10T10:31:00.000+08:00

The past few weeks has really been a very busy one for me. IBG, school work and Design project. Super tiring sia. Sorta relief that i have more free time for myself now.

Going to start on my FYP already. Haven been touching it. Feel kinda paiseh as my partner in fyp has been getting some work done. Hopefully the SBS transit will reply me soon with e relavent information.

2007-09-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

Last lap... Gg to have presentation later.. Frantic reading now to ensure that i do not pull my groupmates down... 5 min for one person during presentation is really quite little man.. Hopefully we can impress the lecturer enough to get our A =)

BBall later tonight... Last IBG sports in my NUS life le.. Really need to psych myself up for it.!

2007-09-06T03:51:00.000+08:00

-end of chapter-

sigh.

2007-09-05T16:07:00.001+08:00

GU DU QIU BAI...

2007-09-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

Cant wait for this design project to be over.! REsearch Research!

At the same time, sometimes being busy is pretty good. keeps the mind occupied... Gonna start getting my appts in soon i guess.! been meaning to do it for a long long time!

2007-08-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

Handball yesterday was really quite fun. Although i felt that overall it's very rough but well tat happens all the time when you have pple who have no experience in playing the game.

REally glad to c Martin back in action! hahaz.. i got a very good feeling about this coming IHG! my last IHG!
Also the look of joy and excitement when a freshie scored a goal is really priceless man! Their energy and aggressiveness is what some of the snrs are lacking.. think it's very refreshing and motivating for me.=)

but the sucky part of the playing hte match is after the match, i have to go back do project! Everyday project till a bit sian man. BUt really glad that the Prof appreciates our efforts and it's very obvious that we were the most detailed group among the others with less smoking involved.=)

I mean when ur prof ask you to allocated some time for other modules also and that we need to have a balanced life etc, it say a lot on how much we been working on right? hahaz

2007-08-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

Blk initiation just ended. Missed most of it. But was really glad that i was able to c them undergo the pledge. I guess every year there will be a dif exp for all these blk events. But somehow this yr seems really meaningful as this marks a new era in which the young freshies will carry on the E blk culture, build strong bonds as well taking up responsibilities in time to come.

Still remember coming in Kr as a freshie. knowing nobody else but xiaoyun. then slowly getting to know the bunch of brothers and sisters such as huan, yaozong, ron, teckie, honjie. the 2nd floor gang where we form 2 gang when watching soccer. The man utd fans vs the liverpool fans. The flying ants attack during one of the rainy days where all of us have to put towels on our doors to prevents the insects from entering our rms. Waking up at 6 everyday for training. playing our hearts out for IBG.. the latenite jog with some of the golden gers.

Knowing good frens from hall production where i was roped in as marketing manager. Being lost and all. going to find all the way to little india to meet sponsor with elaine with Eugene leading us. 501 dollars and yet we must do so so much.. miss complaining about all those together. Really miss the comm of my first yr hall production team. The most happening comm there ever will be sia! Driving lorry with Eugene with 2 punctured tyre while looking for place to change the tyres. "spoiling"the door of the UCC while trying to find a shortcut to move about in the UCC. helping with the promotion booth. Singing the hall production song. ( with one sounding like a communist song). cleaning up the mess for elaine after the animals that she was entrusted to passed away. the white mice etc.

The handball gang(huan, hon etc) which allows me the chance to try out handball as a new sports. jioing me and the freshies of my batch down to practice shooting etc. really hope to carry this tradition and train up the freshies to be future legends..

All these and so many experiences n memories that can only be formed during our stay in KR. I still honestly think that my yr1 exp in Hall is probably one of the best that i ever had! kudos to all my snrs and fellow freshies(now final yrs) that make it such a fun place!

[MV] Jay Chou - A Secret I Cannot Tell (不能说的秘密)

2007-08-18T16:07:00.001+08:00

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千
梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变你走过的世界
你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想象你在身边
在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

2007-08-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

Dint managed to go to the bird park after all... kinda disappointed but was told that there is nothing interesting there at all. haha..

Presentation went by quite smoothly i feel . Think that the prof tot that we did okay... After resting for today, tmr shall be another round of preparation! Shall make sure i contribute more this time. Mass balance! my forte!(yar right)

Went out with Elaine and some of her Exchange friends today. Suddenly feel that i do not know Singapore at all. At a lost on where to bring the exchange students to. When Yaozong's fren from Sweden came, we just fed him with lotsa local delicacies and fruits. dun remember bringing him to much places( think yz handled all that). Anyway i finally found a place that have chicken rice balls though i dint get a chance to eat it. shall make a point to try it out when i go back office in the near future. Haven gotten the chance to go back recently due to design project. really need to update my software as well as prepare some policies man...

2007-08-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

Gg to have a presentation tmr... Wish me luck pple!

I just cant wait to go birdpark for the first time tmr.! Kinda looking forward to it since last week. =)

2007-07-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

dint update my blog for some time.. Life is as usual. Internship is still boring to me but i am glad that i took up the internship to some extent. It made me able to think clearly as to what do i wan in life. For that i am grateful.
Today, Stein came back .Apparently he's back in Singapore for a while so decided to come and talk to his colleagues. Heard him sharing with them some of his exp in his new job in the middle east(cant pronounce the name). Apparently it's pretty welfare. Imagine this.. If he were to come back to Stolt Nielsen Transport Group, he would have to take a pay cut, forgo his car, free accomodation, insurance policies, Free education for his kids. Also he will no longer have as much benefits in terms of travelling expenses. He travels biz class anywhere and on top of that he was given credit card with credit of US$50k.! Pretty happy for him. I guess the only downside of the job is that you have to uproot yourself and live in a new country and environment. But however if you are working in the Shipping industry, you travel around all the time and hardly at home. So i guess that isnt an issue for him.

Gonna end my internship on friday. Will i miss it? Of cos not! But i just kinda sad that i wasnt able to achieve more with my time over there in terms of mixing around with the pple there. But i am glad i made frens such as Shawn my fellow intern who is a joker. Going to have more time to hang out in the afternoon. But still have fwoc. There are some things that i really want to do and i will surely implement it after i end this internship. For now.. It's Hello Stolt Nielsen!

2007-07-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

Just did a quick calculation on NUS CAP calculator to determine how i should fare in order to pull to my desired grade. Realised that I must really do the impossible.. Nevertherless i shall make sure i dun leave NUS regretting not fighting during my last year of studies!!

WIsh me luck pple!

2007-07-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

Went out with PRU frens to celebrate Shan shan's bday. First time that i tried eating in Waraku. think the food is quite yummy. however some of my frens say okay only.. The thing is that i am not used to eating a NON buffet jap food sia.. SOOO wanted to order california roll and soft shell crap and unagi. =P

Pumproom was superb too! totally enjoyed the beer and the red wine.. the band was also quite good and the finger food were quite good too. Overall it was superb.

MS CHAN SHAN SHAN... I hope u enjoyed ur bday celebration that we prepared for u... May all your dreams come true..

* so many things that i wan to do but no time man.. Cant wait for Intern to end. Wan to meet so many pple.. wan to spend more time on my career. Wan to get my freaking license. *

2007-07-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

First time i c so much hope in KR handball!!! =) pple are improving!! Some of the players are really improving alot.. really glad...

think i am lagging behind in terms of progress man.. cant qie, cant shoot, can defense properly yet.... very excited about the prospect of playing next yr! Next yr will be a challenging IHG sia!! =)

in the meanwhile it's training training training!!! gyming session on sat plus jogging on sunday.. superb!

Lifehouse - Everything

2007-07-11T21:06:00.001+08:00

Lifehouse - Everything

find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now

'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything