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黄小琥 - 没那么简单


没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人著迷
什麽都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆


Song that strike a chord with a jaded heart ya?

Made quite a bit of committment to myself this year. Many small decisions were made so that I will move closer to my dreams.

Gg to Shenzhen, Macau, Hongkong on the 25-31st Jan followed by Bangkok from 2-4 February. Really looking forward to them cos it's been a long long while since I have been travelling! =)

Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson

it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.We were born to make manifest the glory ofGod that is within us.It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,we unconsciously give other peoplepermission to do the same.As we are liberated from our own fear,Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

Have you ever felt maligned and caught in between situation?
Well that is exactly what happened.

Personally I can empathise with both side because of the different objectives that both ends are trying to attain. I duno what exactly is gg on but wat i felt was that I was accused of certain things even before things were clarified. Something like a "you are guilty unless proven innocent" in which seriously I m not very interested in claiming my stake for innocence cause it just result in more unhappiness. What I dint like was the attitude that I was subjected to which I must say I CAN empathise to some extent.

Although I do not know exactly what was the arrangement I personally felt that no side was wrong however due to some communication breakdown, one party wasnt informed of certain arrangement in which the other party wasnt aware of as well. Well I guess certain good things that can come out of it is that it shows the importance of proper communication towards parties involved.

Also by me venting my frustration on blog just shows that there is still some way to go before I can attain the emotional maturity stated on lesson 14 on SMI. Perhaps I could have handle the situation in a better manner if I dint allow my feelings of being maligned to overcome me and objectively listened before I commented. Well end of the day it just shows that there are still much to learn in my journey towards my success in life. For everything that happened, there is always a silver lining. Instead of focusing on what has happened, I shall attempt to focus on what I can do to better improve myself in the future.

I shall perservere till I succeed!

FAIL MY IPPT.. Sigh... The rest of the station get 5 also no use lor.

Felt that I dint put in my 100% when jogging today. First 2 rounds was good, 3rd round i started coughing badly then i stop to cough it out.. Subsequently cant find back the momentum to carry me through the 6 rounds... Quite disapointed with my performance today.

Only consolation is that this is my first ippt test in 2 years. All I need to improve is on the mental aspect of the jogging and I am set to pass ippt. The rest of the station was a breeze surprisely given i haven been training for them at all.

3 Times a week training is beckoning. Hopefully I will pass the next one that they have halfway through RT. Also hope to be able to get to know more pple during this RT.



Work

Work has been great. Really convinced that this is the line that I want to be in for the forseeable future. Just did a H1N1 hospitalisation claim 2 months ago as well as a Pregnancy complication claim 5 months ago. I really hope that I will not need to do any death or critical illness claims but I heard from my colleagues that it's a life changing experience to be helping a client do such claim.

Recently have been doing quite a fair bit of investment linked policies. Currently I think that this policy is really something. Especially when it's for young people. Just did one for a client's kid. Power sia. Even if my client pay for next 10 years only it will be able to provide coverage to the child while still accumulating wealth for the rest of his life! =)

Hope that i can improve myself further. Feel that there are many areas that I should brush up.


Health

Been coughing like mad these 1-2 weeks. Getting really irritating and it really affects my mood at times. Hope that it will recover soon. My pi pa gao not working leh =s

Feel like drinking...

Anyway have been taking RT for the past few weeks. Quite a good training I must say though. Good opportunity for me to lose that excess fats and gain back my fitnes. I miss my old fitness. Shall get it back! IPPT on Thurs, will try my best to pass it!

Time to feel like this once again! anyway the pic was from way back maybe 2006?