Have you ever felt maligned and caught in between situation?
Well that is exactly what happened.

Personally I can empathise with both side because of the different objectives that both ends are trying to attain. I duno what exactly is gg on but wat i felt was that I was accused of certain things even before things were clarified. Something like a "you are guilty unless proven innocent" in which seriously I m not very interested in claiming my stake for innocence cause it just result in more unhappiness. What I dint like was the attitude that I was subjected to which I must say I CAN empathise to some extent.

Although I do not know exactly what was the arrangement I personally felt that no side was wrong however due to some communication breakdown, one party wasnt informed of certain arrangement in which the other party wasnt aware of as well. Well I guess certain good things that can come out of it is that it shows the importance of proper communication towards parties involved.

Also by me venting my frustration on blog just shows that there is still some way to go before I can attain the emotional maturity stated on lesson 14 on SMI. Perhaps I could have handle the situation in a better manner if I dint allow my feelings of being maligned to overcome me and objectively listened before I commented. Well end of the day it just shows that there are still much to learn in my journey towards my success in life. For everything that happened, there is always a silver lining. Instead of focusing on what has happened, I shall attempt to focus on what I can do to better improve myself in the future.

I shall perservere till I succeed!

FAIL MY IPPT.. Sigh... The rest of the station get 5 also no use lor.

Felt that I dint put in my 100% when jogging today. First 2 rounds was good, 3rd round i started coughing badly then i stop to cough it out.. Subsequently cant find back the momentum to carry me through the 6 rounds... Quite disapointed with my performance today.

Only consolation is that this is my first ippt test in 2 years. All I need to improve is on the mental aspect of the jogging and I am set to pass ippt. The rest of the station was a breeze surprisely given i haven been training for them at all.

3 Times a week training is beckoning. Hopefully I will pass the next one that they have halfway through RT. Also hope to be able to get to know more pple during this RT.



Work

Work has been great. Really convinced that this is the line that I want to be in for the forseeable future. Just did a H1N1 hospitalisation claim 2 months ago as well as a Pregnancy complication claim 5 months ago. I really hope that I will not need to do any death or critical illness claims but I heard from my colleagues that it's a life changing experience to be helping a client do such claim.

Recently have been doing quite a fair bit of investment linked policies. Currently I think that this policy is really something. Especially when it's for young people. Just did one for a client's kid. Power sia. Even if my client pay for next 10 years only it will be able to provide coverage to the child while still accumulating wealth for the rest of his life! =)

Hope that i can improve myself further. Feel that there are many areas that I should brush up.


Health

Been coughing like mad these 1-2 weeks. Getting really irritating and it really affects my mood at times. Hope that it will recover soon. My pi pa gao not working leh =s

Feel like drinking...

Anyway have been taking RT for the past few weeks. Quite a good training I must say though. Good opportunity for me to lose that excess fats and gain back my fitnes. I miss my old fitness. Shall get it back! IPPT on Thurs, will try my best to pass it!

Time to feel like this once again! anyway the pic was from way back maybe 2006?

Should I or should i not? hmmm...

Chu(4) Qia(1)? Quite a tempting thought.. better do more research scarly regret...

What exactly is good service in my line?

I have been pondering about this question over and over again.


After chatting with many pple on this topic i came to a conclusion(duno if universal or not)

Basically sums up to this one word.


SINCERITY...

I am taking this news harder than I tot i will be...

Life goes on

Had been troubled lately. With a lot of questions, personal challenges etc

Time and passed and gone, how can I make use of whatever time i have right now to get my dream?


Really need to think of a way to hasten this process

Why are you doing what you are doing? What motivates you?

Tough question.. been thinking a lot to myself on this question. Interesting questions isnt it? I had quite a lot of answers but i had the problem in the past finding the very one thing that burn deeply inside. Lately after experiencing quite a fair bit of the ups and down of the career, the excitment of being to really benefit the client by helping them plan their finances to the demoralising pekchekness of being "pangsehed" again...

I currently have a list of answers to the questions. Some of the personal, some of the childish, some of them are superficial but ultimately it doenst matter i feel. As long as we know exactly why we are doing what we are doing, there is no reason to fail.

-by the way. I m writing this just to remind myself nv to fall back to the comfort zone, the state of mediocracy. Jiayou Wilson!!

EXAMS

It's been a while since I took my last examination. Today i experienced the same agony that I felt when I was in Year1 Sem1. Was totally lost in the AFP examination.

Unlike the previous papers that I attempted before the exam, this paper has more theory than calculations and I came prepared for tackling tough calculations. WRONG TACTIC!

In the end for some questions I had to resort to intelligent guesses for many of the question. the question are incredibly tough with many tricky questions. Really have to know our stuff fully before attempting.

Shall cross my fingers and hope that when the results comes out next month, I might just get lucky and pass!


Anyway was in NUS the past 2 days (Wed and Thurs) for KR bazaar. Had a booth there to promote our internship program. Feels good to be back in the campus though I feel out of place as all of them look so young!


With all the examination, internship promoting settled behind me, it's time to embark on my primary job, the closings! Next week will be a exciting week for me and I am looking forward to it! Especially since our latest product that was just launched on the 1st April! Looking forward! =)

My tuition kids rocks!

Got this a few days back during my birthday. Was seriously touched. =)

Sometimes(or rather most of the times), the simple things that one do can really light up another person's life. We tend to forget that a simple msg or a note to wish one happy birthday(applicable to other stuff as well) can mean a lot to the person receiving it. Simple things like replying a msg, actively finding out more about what's gg on in other's life can really mean a lot of difference.

Just blogged this to make sure that I dun forget this. Striving to be a person who can make this difference to the pple i care about, my clients, my pillars of support. Still got lotsa to learn and apply before I can be a better person.

静茹 卢广仲 - 不是我不明白
作曲:林倛玉填词:李焯雄

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

会进来吗
你在送我回家 我还在猜测
可都是真的吗
再见面前
一直想象 还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友
不再重叠
你的世界
我在边缘

不是我不明白
这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱 说来无奈
来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白
你还在

男:没说分手
终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过的
女:多少年了(男:多少年了)
我想过能和你一起老的
合:却都有别人了
新的朋友
不再重叠
我的世界
你在边缘
不是我不明白
有些话没说出来
能再次关怀
时间洗刷所有不愉快
后来的爱
我们尝试去款待
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待
女:没刻意掩埋
男:没对他坦白
合:你还在

女:不是我不明白
合:说悲哀并不应该
我们的关怀
像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来
我们才学会爱
但现在 说来感慨
不是那个未来
女:我们说好的(男:说好的)
男:不会更改的
合:你会在

In love with this song right now. just some random song that i downloaded.

Random Thought 1:
My tooth is giving me problems again!

Yes. The same one that has given me days and days of looking like a clown back in taiwan. It's back!!! Took some antibiotics hopefully within the next few days it will heal.

Guess its really time for me to go do that root canal treatment that i have been procrastinating...


Random Thought 2:
Anyway just wanna thank those who contributed to my birthday present yesterday. You all rock! =) I will definitely make use of the accessories for future appointments. =)



Random Thought 3:

Project 300 is gg on well. Some revision have to be made as it started a bit slower than expected but so far the result is encouraging.

I really need to force myself to reach office by 830am... Owed a total of 3 breakfasts already and still I tend to reach slightly later!





Random Though 4:

Turning 26 in a matter of days. Looking forward to the challenges ahead of me for this coming year of the OX.
"History shall be kind to me cos I intend to make it." -Winson Churchill-

Initiating Project 300...



Completion Date 30th June 2009.





3 down.... 297 to go!!! Looking forward! =)







If it's to be it's up to me.!

By MARIA CHENG,AP Medical Writer AP - Friday, December 5LONDON - When you're smiling, the whole world really does smile with you.

ADVERTISEMENT

A paper being published Friday in a British medical journal concludes that happiness is contagious _ and that people pass on their good cheer even to total strangers.

American researchers who tracked more than 4,700 people in Framingham, Mass., as part of a 20-year heart study also found the transferred happiness is good for up to a year.

"Happiness is like a stampede," said Nicholas Christakis, a professor in Harvard University's sociology department and co-author of the study. "Whether you're happy depends not just on your own actions and behaviors and thoughts, but on those of people you don't even know."

While the study is another sign of the power of social networks, it ran through 2003, just before the rise of social networking Web sites like Friendster, MySpace and Facebook. Christakis couldn't say for sure whether the effect works online.

"This type of technology enhances your contact with friends, so it should support the kind of emotional contagion we observed," he said.

Christakis and co-author James Fowler, of the University of California in San Diego, are old hands at studying social networks. They previously found that obesity and smoking habits spread socially as well.

For this study, published in the British journal BMJ, they examined questionnaires that asked people to measure their happiness. They found distinct happy and unhappy clusters significantly bigger than would be expected by chance.

Happy people tended to be at the center of social networks and had many friends who were also happy. Having friends or siblings nearby increased people's chances of being upbeat. Happiness spread outward by three degrees, to the friends of friends of friends.

Happy spouses helped, too, but not as much as happy friends of the same gender. Experts think people, particularly woman, take emotional cues from people who look like them.

Christakis and Fowler estimate that each happy friend boosts your own chances of being happy by 9 percent. Having grumpy friends decreases it by about 7 percent.

But it also turns out misery don't love company: Happiness seemed to spread more consistently than unhappiness. But that doesn't mean you should drop your gloomy friends.

"Every friend increases the probability that you're at the center of a network, which means you are more eligible to get a wave of happiness," Fowler said.

Being happy also brings other benefits, including a protective effect on your immune system so you produce fewer stress hormones, said Andrew Steptoe, a psychology professor at University College London who was not involved with the study.

But you shouldn't assume you can make yourself happy just by making the right friends.

"To say you can manipulate who your friends are to make yourself happier would be going too far," said Stanley Wasserman, an Indiana University statistician who studies social networks.

The study was only conducted in a single community, so it would take more research to confirm its findings. But in a time of economic gloom, it also suggested some heartening news about money and happiness.

According to the research, an extra chunk of money increases your odds of being happy only marginally _ notably less than the odds of being happier if you have a happy friend.

"You can save your money," Christakis said. "Being around happy people is better."


The above is from yahoo news. Just think that it's really interesting. On the same note it's also the same when it comes to attitude and mindset. Being around positive people will inevitably make us positive as well.

Al Pacino - Any Given Sunday -

I don't know what to say really.
Three minutes
to the biggest battle of our professional lives
all comes down to today.
Either
we heal
as a team
or we are going to crumble.
Inch by inch
play by play
till we're finished.
We are in hell right now, gentlemen
believe me
and
we can stay here
and get the shit kicked out of us
or
we can fight our way
back into the light.
We can climb out of hell.
One inch, at a time.

Now I can't do it for you.
I'm too old.
I look around and I see these young faces
and I think
I mean
I made every wrong choice a middle age man could make.
I uh....
I pissed away all my money
believe it or not.
I chased off
anyone who has ever loved me.
And lately,
I can't even stand the face I see in the mirror.

You know when you get old in life
things get taken from you.
That's, that's part of life.
But,
you only learn that when you start losing stuff.
You find out that life is just a game of inches.
So is football.
Because in either game
life or football
the margin for error is so small.
I mean
one half step too late or to early
you don't quite make it.
One half second too slow or too fast
and you don't quite catch it.
The inches we need are everywhere around us.
They are in ever break of the game
every minute, every second.

On this team, we fight for that inch
On this team, we tear ourselves, and everyone around us
to pieces for that inch.
We CLAW with our finger nails for that inch.
Cause we know
when we add up all those inches
that's going to make the fucking difference
between WINNING and LOSING
between LIVING and DYING.

I'll tell you this
in any fight
it is the guy who is willing to die
who is going to win that inch.
And I know
if I am going to have any life anymore
it is because, I am still willing to fight, and die for that inch
because that is what LIVING is.
The six inches in front of your face.

Now I can't make you do it.
You gotta look at the guy next to you.
Look into his eyes.
Now I think you are going to see a guy who will go that inch with you.
You are going to see a guy
who will sacrifice himself for this team
because he knows when it comes down to it,
you are gonna do the same thing for him.

That's a team, gentlemen
and either we heal now, as a team,
or we will die as individuals.
That's football guys.
That's all it is.
Now, whattaya gonna do?



SIMPLY INSPIRING! One of my personal favourite right now as I really think what he say makes lotsa sense.

The INCHES we need are EVERYWHERE... ...

Just read this new(see below) Amidst the super negativity in this news lately, this is one that is good news to guys out there Anyone interested applicants? Take a number and stand at the back of the queue pls... haha.

Anyway life's been great!

Christmas is near and Taiwanese diva Jolin Tsai makes two wishes - popularity for her new album and a "boyfriend" for Christmas - at her concert press conference in Canada on Nov 25.

At the press conference, Jolin receives a certificate from the Canada Parliament as recognition to her popularity and achievements in the music industry. Canada also extended their warm welcome and well wishes for her concert. Jolin has been hoping to find love and this Christmas, she wishes for a boyfriend. "I hope he is a man who can protect me, neck or nought," she says.

December has always been the golden period for corporate year-end shows. This year, Jolin pushes away these performances invites to concentrate on her new album. "I want to spend more time producing a good album, so I don't think I have much time this year end," she says.
World economy is gloomy and Jolin advises her fans against unnecessary expenditure. "Majority of my fans is still in school, and their parents are their main source of finance, so they should learn to spend less," she advises.

some random stuff i found on the net.

have lesser and lesser reason to blog lately.

Cant really bitch out loud, cant complain too much, dun wan to repeat same stuff.


Till another chapter of my life begin shall i blog i guess....

Dear Universe,

I m kindly ordering 3 new appts a day and $15,000 FYC at the end of the year. I shall do everything that i can without compromising on integrity, my clients interest as price to pay to receive it, no matter how uncomfortable this task will be. I thereby dedicate all my time and effort in the attainment of this goal.
Kindly let me help enough people to take the responsibility upon themselves to transfer their risk away from themselves such that they will be able to protect themselves and their loved one from unforeseen unfortunate events. My promise is that I will do my utmost to make sure I deliver the best that I can to help them achieve their dreams.

Yours Sincerely

Wilson Tham Wei Zheng



==================================================================


Felt so much better after ranting it out.. TMr will be a better day!

Frustrated... Really need to improve on many things.
Cant seem to get people to see the imptance and urgency which is the reason why I m in this line. Very frustrating when I know i am trying my best.
However i believe that destiny is not by chance, it's a choice. Shall pursue till i succeed!