haha.. didnt really managed to get a lot of information into my head yesterday night or should i say the day before yesterday night cos it's like 6 10 am liao. haha. Was studying employee management with Elaine, jin xian, martin, honjie and janice. i kept sleeping~!!
haha... luckily the employee management test was still okay.. managed to put what i have learned into the essays..however there are many points that i taught of which i was unable to put it in which is quite disappointing. Oh well.. it's over.. moving on.....
DO i really look that haggard? how come everybody asked if i am okay?? hmm.... although i am sick but no need like everyone can tell like tat mah...was touched when a particular person asked if i was feeling okay. feels good to know that she cares about me.... Really hoped she will be able to get good grades for her exam tml... 9 am test and at 4 she still hasnt gone to bed. pray that she will have the alertness during exam and not feel sleepy...
I really have to start intensive training if i want to be able to get at leasta a silver for ippt.. Also must train up also for the block trip.. i go like tat sure kana suan until die one..sighz.. when i look at the photo of me 1 yr ago.. i was so slim compared to now. I guess i was pretty unhappy for a period of time and kept eating and eating. never mind...will have to work hard after the exams to train up...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Monday, April 25, 2005
Sleepless night
i thought i would never post on this blog for a long time for 2 obvious reason... It's the exams period and i am starting to make this blog my whining area where i whin about relationship.
Have a exam later at 9 am.A mod called Critical Thinking n Writing(ctw). Supposed to write a 750 word critique later... Therefore i should be sleeping now shouldnt it? Dunno why i been having such sleepless nights ever since last thurs night just before the sociology paper. Been sleeping in cycles of 2 hrs. It's making me fall sick... having a headache, my forehead feels hot and have this sinus problem. hmmm.. but who cares? it's the exam period~ everybody is studying and getting sick~! On one hand i can wait for the exams to be over and on the other hand i wish for it to drag so that i got more time to study for my modules. I got 4 papers this week. just had SC1101E last friday(230405) and PC1432 on sat. Guess there's really no time for me to relax as i prepare for the exams during this period of time. Guess i would try to make this blogsite a nicer websitel,decorating it and inviting fren to look at it.. once i either hide or delete my previous postings.. haha.. sorry guys too private for viewing...
Had a weird dream just now. in fact i forgot 90% of the dream le. Dreamt of this ger that i have no idea who she is. She's my girlfriend in my dreams i think. also in my dream was junxing and kev plus erm.. traffic police? dun ask me why there is the traffic police.. this is my dreams silly, not something that i control. This brings me to this point. haven been dreaming for quite a long time le.. is it a gd or bad thing? hmm... remains to be seen.
Sometimes i wonder if it's worth it to walk this path. Is it worth it? I mean it is time for results soon... I dun wan to be a passenger in this trip. I wan to be the leading role in this life. dun wan to waste time on forlorn causes that would always cause pain to myself. Look at other pple~ they have either moved on or hve already achieved their target. What am i doing? although the decision does not lies in me however i could have done much more . However being the egoistic person i am , sometimes i do not wan to always bring myself to do things that i should. I wan to protect myself from harm ... I hate Rejections....I hate Failures....
Saw this senior msn nick some day back.. mentioned something about you mising 100% of the shots that if you dont even attempt them.... Well i think it's rather true.
OH yar i gonna be taking ippt at maju on the 21th may 2005 at 8 am i think.. bloody hell so early right? I am damn unfat now with layers and layers of fat around my waist. Love handles they call it... It's disgusting and turning me off... been doing a lot of situps crunches and flutter kick recently but it doesnt seem to be working.. Sure enough the muscles got harder but the layer of fats dun seem to come off.. and also the bulge is also there... dunno why also... I dun think myself as a vain person but i guess i dun like to look below a certain standard. is that called being vain? then i guess i am vain then...lolx
been looking at other pple's blog lately, realised that crappy pple are everywhere~!! haha. take a look at my blog and u will go ZZZ.. but take a look at theirs and u will die laughing...~
speaking of which i must go find out how to put picture on this blog site..hahaa
getting tired of blogging, will continue in the near future. think tml when i start to worry about emplyee management.. i ahve touch it yet.sigh..
zzzz.....
Have a exam later at 9 am.A mod called Critical Thinking n Writing(ctw). Supposed to write a 750 word critique later... Therefore i should be sleeping now shouldnt it? Dunno why i been having such sleepless nights ever since last thurs night just before the sociology paper. Been sleeping in cycles of 2 hrs. It's making me fall sick... having a headache, my forehead feels hot and have this sinus problem. hmmm.. but who cares? it's the exam period~ everybody is studying and getting sick~! On one hand i can wait for the exams to be over and on the other hand i wish for it to drag so that i got more time to study for my modules. I got 4 papers this week. just had SC1101E last friday(230405) and PC1432 on sat. Guess there's really no time for me to relax as i prepare for the exams during this period of time. Guess i would try to make this blogsite a nicer websitel,decorating it and inviting fren to look at it.. once i either hide or delete my previous postings.. haha.. sorry guys too private for viewing...
Had a weird dream just now. in fact i forgot 90% of the dream le. Dreamt of this ger that i have no idea who she is. She's my girlfriend in my dreams i think. also in my dream was junxing and kev plus erm.. traffic police? dun ask me why there is the traffic police.. this is my dreams silly, not something that i control. This brings me to this point. haven been dreaming for quite a long time le.. is it a gd or bad thing? hmm... remains to be seen.
Sometimes i wonder if it's worth it to walk this path. Is it worth it? I mean it is time for results soon... I dun wan to be a passenger in this trip. I wan to be the leading role in this life. dun wan to waste time on forlorn causes that would always cause pain to myself. Look at other pple~ they have either moved on or hve already achieved their target. What am i doing? although the decision does not lies in me however i could have done much more . However being the egoistic person i am , sometimes i do not wan to always bring myself to do things that i should. I wan to protect myself from harm ... I hate Rejections....I hate Failures....
Saw this senior msn nick some day back.. mentioned something about you mising 100% of the shots that if you dont even attempt them.... Well i think it's rather true.
OH yar i gonna be taking ippt at maju on the 21th may 2005 at 8 am i think.. bloody hell so early right? I am damn unfat now with layers and layers of fat around my waist. Love handles they call it... It's disgusting and turning me off... been doing a lot of situps crunches and flutter kick recently but it doesnt seem to be working.. Sure enough the muscles got harder but the layer of fats dun seem to come off.. and also the bulge is also there... dunno why also... I dun think myself as a vain person but i guess i dun like to look below a certain standard. is that called being vain? then i guess i am vain then...lolx
been looking at other pple's blog lately, realised that crappy pple are everywhere~!! haha. take a look at my blog and u will go ZZZ.. but take a look at theirs and u will die laughing...~
speaking of which i must go find out how to put picture on this blog site..hahaa
getting tired of blogging, will continue in the near future. think tml when i start to worry about emplyee management.. i ahve touch it yet.sigh..
zzzz.....
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
does she even care
it's been a long while since i last wrote something in this blog. didnt really wan to post cos most of my posting here are very negative and sad one. un fortunately this posting is also about how sian i am...
apparantly she has started her bochpa me thing again lor. i htink the guy in her rm is benny. dunno lar.. now bloody 145am already still in her rm. i dunno lar. told her yesterday to meet for breakfsat in the end she ate without me. dinner also. then i msged ask her how she feeling.. is headache better never reply. n her nick like tat.
FUCK HER~! damn sian now cos of her.. and i really quite sian of it le. dun feel like beig affected by her le...
she can go live in her fairytale land.. Where she can get all the attention she wants...
apparantly she has started her bochpa me thing again lor. i htink the guy in her rm is benny. dunno lar.. now bloody 145am already still in her rm. i dunno lar. told her yesterday to meet for breakfsat in the end she ate without me. dinner also. then i msged ask her how she feeling.. is headache better never reply. n her nick like tat.
FUCK HER~! damn sian now cos of her.. and i really quite sian of it le. dun feel like beig affected by her le...
she can go live in her fairytale land.. Where she can get all the attention she wants...
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