Judgement Day

Am i becoming more and more gu niang?~!! wtf~! keep assume things here assume things there.. what is happening to me??~!!!

Today saw this guy with her as she came to the dining hall to pack dinner. Then before i left i went up to fill water and saw the guy's sandals outside her door. then after dinner i came back she's not in...what am i supposed to make out of it? they went out? even if it's true it's her freedom so why is it that i am so troubled?~!

I dun know why i am feeling so down recently. is it because she's supposingly attached? I dun know myself. i juz know tat it's a really sucky feeling and i dun wan it to drag anymore.
increasingly sounding like a hua chi, a despo...... but she meant really really too much to me...

Oh well juz saw her msn online. think she got back le. maybe i should go up and ask her after i bathe.. it's for my own good. so that i may at least move on from my current state. TOnight either i am a happiest man on earth or i shall be the saddest.......