sigh

sigh... dint even managed to fight for it cos i was too busy with ihg... keep wanting to do something bout it but in the end... dunno what to say and do anymore.. sigh... now she tells me tat she's attached.. really dunno how to answer her when she say comments..
i wanna say tat i wan to prove to her that i should be the one for her but...
sighz.. i guess it's juz like tat..haiz... i wish her happiness..

anyway damn pissed off right now... over xy again.. i dun believe it.. she lost her hp and everything so i juz pei her lor since i couldnt slp then i ask her to bloody wait for me cos i wan to go toilet. then in the end i went down she left le...
damn damn damn pissed off.. if she think tat i wont worry bout her then she's bloody wrong. i saw her walking down n was worried so i followed behind her and realised she went to find lawrance which piss me off even further.. y cant she juz tell me she finding lawrance.. GO to hell...

well i guess now i dun have to bother about anything and juz conc on my studies le... although it's easier said than done.. i think there's something really wrong with me. why is it tat i always end up being the one who is upset... i wan to stop this idiotic vicious cycle... hate it hate it hate it.. no longer gonna care anymore.. nnb ccb~! i am so damn bloody pissed lar... i hao xin pple take me for fucking granted ... go to hell...