anyone miss this?? cant wait to go block outing... tat is if i got the money~ haha donations anyone??hahahaaa
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
to my close fren
When defending yourself is a wasted effort, don’t even try. It’s too tiring.
I realized something. Some people just keep coming back, no matter how hard you swat them with a fly trap. But some people will never return, no matter how hard you scream for them to. That’s the irony of life, isn’t it?
If the person already implying u are a fly, why bother to ask anymore... this ger is juz not worth it.. treatin u like dirt now yar? there are much better gers out there more worthy of ur attention... no pt putting ur time into someone who dun even bother... true?
suddenly i am the love expert now sia.. i dunno wat the situation now between u and her but i juz think she's not worth it yar? DIU~!
I realized something. Some people just keep coming back, no matter how hard you swat them with a fly trap. But some people will never return, no matter how hard you scream for them to. That’s the irony of life, isn’t it?
If the person already implying u are a fly, why bother to ask anymore... this ger is juz not worth it.. treatin u like dirt now yar? there are much better gers out there more worthy of ur attention... no pt putting ur time into someone who dun even bother... true?
suddenly i am the love expert now sia.. i dunno wat the situation now between u and her but i juz think she's not worth it yar? DIU~!
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
BURP~~
i really think the food in sheares is MUCH MUCH better than fong seng.. fong seng food juz sucks.. haha.. damn i am so bloated cos of the food now... burp~
anyway there's this particular fren of mine who is being "harrassed" by a guy now supposingly... all i can say that if u dun come clean with what ur doing of cos u will get harrased lar.... DUH~!! dun wan to say too much.. not my prob anyway haha...
my this dear dieting fren juz ended her dieting juz now.. haha... u c? i was right~! haha... nvm try again tmr yar?lol... i shall start to stop eating supper also.. jian fei... getting way outta shape.. haha...
anyway starting to feel the heat already of exams... i am like soo dead~! there's like so much to study.. hmmm.. better pia pia pia le... i mean study.. not the pia k? =P.. omg wat am i writing? haha...anyway thanks dinah and miaohui for sending me the photos.. i still have a lot more with pple but i dunno who also....
anyway there's this particular fren of mine who is being "harrassed" by a guy now supposingly... all i can say that if u dun come clean with what ur doing of cos u will get harrased lar.... DUH~!! dun wan to say too much.. not my prob anyway haha...
my this dear dieting fren juz ended her dieting juz now.. haha... u c? i was right~! haha... nvm try again tmr yar?lol... i shall start to stop eating supper also.. jian fei... getting way outta shape.. haha...
anyway starting to feel the heat already of exams... i am like soo dead~! there's like so much to study.. hmmm.. better pia pia pia le... i mean study.. not the pia k? =P.. omg wat am i writing? haha...anyway thanks dinah and miaohui for sending me the photos.. i still have a lot more with pple but i dunno who also....
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Someone is on Diet
Apparantly according to a very reliable source(me~), a certain fifth floor ger is officially starting her diet tmr... meaning THE WORLD IS COMING TO AN END~!!!!
hahaa..
anyway juz celebrated janice's bday juz now.. it's quite fun.. like very long never c so many pple on the rooftop liao leh... haha... Janice, u rock~! Have a great bday yar??
hahaa..
anyway juz celebrated janice's bday juz now.. it's quite fun.. like very long never c so many pple on the rooftop liao leh... haha... Janice, u rock~! Have a great bday yar??
where are all my photos?
hey pple.. i am trying to get my formal dinner photos and my hall bash photos... i asked a lot of pple to take for me but somehow no one seems to be sending me the photos.. so pls pls pls msn me to tell me u have the photos and pass me the photos yar?
thanks a lot..=P
thanks a lot..=P
HAPPY BDAY JANICE~
YA... forgot to post this yesterday but HAPPY BDAY JANICE~!!!!
U ROCK~!!! haha.. it's been great having u as a fren, as hallmates~! =)
U ROCK~!!! haha.. it's been great having u as a fren, as hallmates~! =)
Saturday, September 24, 2005
missing my hp..
I miss my handphone... my nice nice samsung E700a~!!... okay.. maybe it's not TAT nice but i still miss it... It's still at the service centre and they have yet to call me to ask me to collect... hmm... I wan to take photos~!!!
Friday, September 23, 2005
CHangI ViLLAGe~
Went to send off Xun Yu juz now... hope she will adapt fast to the culture there and have lotsa of fun... most importantly hope she will find wat she wants in life while studying there ...
We WENT CHANGI VILLAGE~!!!!! hahah... damn shiok cos i damn long never go there eat le.. been meaning to go back to eat since i finished my reservist. haha... had my yummy chicken cutlet noodles(last time was much better) and my fav red tea longan... MMMM~ heavenly~!
haha.. yz, ron n pearlyn think so too..=)
We wanted to check out hte bapoks one but i guess we were out of luck... the only person tat remotely looks like a bapok is me lar!... Guess it's juz not sightseeing day..=P Too bad pearlyn tat u dun get to c them during ur first time in changi village~!
I miss my army days.. days where we can juz hang out in changi village and have fun.. days where we run to changi beach and back... DAMn... Where are my platoon mates~!! those were the days man~! I never regret sweating and bleeding during my time in army... yar.. sure all my platoon pple feel the same way too...
FOR HONOUR AND GLORY~!
We WENT CHANGI VILLAGE~!!!!! hahah... damn shiok cos i damn long never go there eat le.. been meaning to go back to eat since i finished my reservist. haha... had my yummy chicken cutlet noodles(last time was much better) and my fav red tea longan... MMMM~ heavenly~!
haha.. yz, ron n pearlyn think so too..=)
We wanted to check out hte bapoks one but i guess we were out of luck... the only person tat remotely looks like a bapok is me lar!... Guess it's juz not sightseeing day..=P Too bad pearlyn tat u dun get to c them during ur first time in changi village~!
I miss my army days.. days where we can juz hang out in changi village and have fun.. days where we run to changi beach and back... DAMn... Where are my platoon mates~!! those were the days man~! I never regret sweating and bleeding during my time in army... yar.. sure all my platoon pple feel the same way too...
FOR HONOUR AND GLORY~!
OMG~!!!
i juz changed my setting to my blog and guess wat? MY TAGBOARD IS GONE GONE GONE!!!!
wah piang... sian diao sia... wth... now muz go find out how to put back the tagboard le... boo...
hahaa..
okay.. kingman u dont eat and eat and eat lar.. u juz keep wanting to eat... is tat better? haha.. like my block Ms blink blink... =P
have been at the engine bridge since about 1115am. supposed to study but up to now i have been fiddling with my blog and listening to songs.. haha... later muz hand up the stupid design shit... i hate AUTOCAD... haha...
later have to send off a fren who have been in hall only for a short period of time yet was quite close with us... Xun yu is going overseas to study!!! BYe ger... your presence will be misssed... No one is eating my oranges now tat u left.. haha... nvm .. more for myself then...=P
wah piang... sian diao sia... wth... now muz go find out how to put back the tagboard le... boo...
hahaa..
okay.. kingman u dont eat and eat and eat lar.. u juz keep wanting to eat... is tat better? haha.. like my block Ms blink blink... =P
have been at the engine bridge since about 1115am. supposed to study but up to now i have been fiddling with my blog and listening to songs.. haha... later muz hand up the stupid design shit... i hate AUTOCAD... haha...
later have to send off a fren who have been in hall only for a short period of time yet was quite close with us... Xun yu is going overseas to study!!! BYe ger... your presence will be misssed... No one is eating my oranges now tat u left.. haha... nvm .. more for myself then...=P
cute scenes.. haha...
i think our freshies are quite the bomb lar.. damn cute freshies around doing funny stuff..
haha... u all should c pearlyn sleeping on yz's or should i say janice's beanbag.. haha... look like a baby sia... dianah also.. anywhere also can sleep.. so amusing..
Juz got treated to supper by albert and king man.. not bad sia... simple but nice food.. haha we need more of this in our block man`! haha.. but i consider it funny cos we were like cooking maggi mee and frying eggs and luncheon meat at erm... 4 am? hahahaa.. but it's a fun experience no doubt..=) let's do it again~!
Another interesting thing is the carebear gummi bear game.. DID ALL of u see that hugh "poster" juz outside 6th floor lift for Ceying? Wah piang.. damn big can... All of a sudden it reminds me of dating game... last yr also never so kua zhang except for a certain senior who wrote this famous(or should i say infamous) quote for a certain freshman...
" TO THE WORLD YOU ARE JUZ A GER... BUT TO ME, YOU ARE THE WORLD..."
Glad to c a lot of freshies all very enthu about the game.. pple have been asking me where to place the letters to their bears and also already some of them are very active in writing letters to their bears le... HAHA...this is so FUN~!
i shall attempt to post something funny on my next blog... since i got "discovered" by yz and company tat i have a blog...
haha... u all should c pearlyn sleeping on yz's or should i say janice's beanbag.. haha... look like a baby sia... dianah also.. anywhere also can sleep.. so amusing..
Juz got treated to supper by albert and king man.. not bad sia... simple but nice food.. haha we need more of this in our block man`! haha.. but i consider it funny cos we were like cooking maggi mee and frying eggs and luncheon meat at erm... 4 am? hahahaa.. but it's a fun experience no doubt..=) let's do it again~!
Another interesting thing is the carebear gummi bear game.. DID ALL of u see that hugh "poster" juz outside 6th floor lift for Ceying? Wah piang.. damn big can... All of a sudden it reminds me of dating game... last yr also never so kua zhang except for a certain senior who wrote this famous(or should i say infamous) quote for a certain freshman...
" TO THE WORLD YOU ARE JUZ A GER... BUT TO ME, YOU ARE THE WORLD..."
Glad to c a lot of freshies all very enthu about the game.. pple have been asking me where to place the letters to their bears and also already some of them are very active in writing letters to their bears le... HAHA...this is so FUN~!
i shall attempt to post something funny on my next blog... since i got "discovered" by yz and company tat i have a blog...
Cannon Ball
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Damn nice song
Went to listen to this band sing at timbre today.. the band is called EIC and they totally rock~! i really enjoyed myself a lot alot... HAPPY BDAY HUICHING~!!!!
James Blunt - You're Beautiful Lyrics
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.
James Blunt - You're Beautiful Lyrics
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
The ExamA student comes to a young professor's office hours. She glances down the hall, closes his door, kneels pleadingly.
"I would do anything to pass this exam."
She leans closer to him, flips back her hair, gazes meaningfully into his eyes.
"I mean..." she whispers, "...I would do... anything!!!"
He returns her gaze. "Anything???"
"Yes,... Anything!!!"
His voice turns to a whisper.
"Would you........... study???"
"I would do anything to pass this exam."
She leans closer to him, flips back her hair, gazes meaningfully into his eyes.
"I mean..." she whispers, "...I would do... anything!!!"
He returns her gaze. "Anything???"
"Yes,... Anything!!!"
His voice turns to a whisper.
"Would you........... study???"
advice for fren...
a certain fren of mine is having probs with his ex... he still cant give up on his ex... The thing is i can understand how he feels.. it's sucks when gers do not give u the reason why they have to enf the relationship... it's really unfair to the other party...
if one day i were to be in a relationship and break off i would wan my ger to tell me exactly wat is wrong... not tat kinda bullshit...
one word for that fren of mine.. u deserve better than someone who dun even care enough to tell u the reasons... why still harbour feelings for her....?
if one day i were to be in a relationship and break off i would wan my ger to tell me exactly wat is wrong... not tat kinda bullshit...
one word for that fren of mine.. u deserve better than someone who dun even care enough to tell u the reasons... why still harbour feelings for her....?
wat the fuck
i deserve to be kicked in the butt and condemned forever... why do i feel so pissed off still when i think about her? jialat lar.. i wan to move on~!!!
most prob she's having fun with zhiyou now so why should i feel so unhappy over her? She's not even sad that we have to end up like that so why should i care?
I feel like shit now... There are much better pple out there but why do i still have to have feelings lingering for her? it should be severed by now but i still get jealous... why is that so?
even when my heart feels like moving on?
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
why linger on to something when the stand is already so clear le? Why? sometimes i really wan to be able to cry out loud but i juz cant cry out... numb? dead? maybe...
I guess it will take some time before i can trust gers enough.. To be able to chase a ger anymore... Right now i dun feel like doing any steps to do anything..
ron say i was too idealistic when i told him for me now i dun wan to chase a ger until i know she's likes me.. but honestly tat's how i feel for now.. even though there might be pple out there whom i am really interested in, i am juz not ready to venture.. would much rather juz be friends first.. do not wan to bring myself to the stage where i can get hurted...
i bared my heart and soul to u totally but u destroyed it ... not once but thrice... how can i ever do the same to anybody? i really wonder... once bitten twice shy? i dumb enough to get bitten thrice...4th time u bet i be DAmn bloody careful...
i hope tat someday u realised wat a bitch u r....
most prob she's having fun with zhiyou now so why should i feel so unhappy over her? She's not even sad that we have to end up like that so why should i care?
I feel like shit now... There are much better pple out there but why do i still have to have feelings lingering for her? it should be severed by now but i still get jealous... why is that so?
even when my heart feels like moving on?
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF
why linger on to something when the stand is already so clear le? Why? sometimes i really wan to be able to cry out loud but i juz cant cry out... numb? dead? maybe...
I guess it will take some time before i can trust gers enough.. To be able to chase a ger anymore... Right now i dun feel like doing any steps to do anything..
ron say i was too idealistic when i told him for me now i dun wan to chase a ger until i know she's likes me.. but honestly tat's how i feel for now.. even though there might be pple out there whom i am really interested in, i am juz not ready to venture.. would much rather juz be friends first.. do not wan to bring myself to the stage where i can get hurted...
i bared my heart and soul to u totally but u destroyed it ... not once but thrice... how can i ever do the same to anybody? i really wonder... once bitten twice shy? i dumb enough to get bitten thrice...4th time u bet i be DAmn bloody careful...
i hope tat someday u realised wat a bitch u r....
Sunday, September 18, 2005
hp
my hp chiu`! the screen damn screwed up.. keep having to open very little or else i wont be able to c hte image..
u dunno how hard it's to msg lar... irritating~! i need a new phone~!!!!
u dunno how hard it's to msg lar... irritating~! i need a new phone~!!!!
advice from other pple's blog
The Typical Two-Timing Scenario
A friend of mine is dating a girl who is attached. The girl said she like my friend more, but does not want to discuss about breaking up with her boyfriend. In their 'confusion', she ends up dating both guys for a period of time. Till now.My friend is tired. Staying on hurts. And hanging in mid-air like this doesn't seem to get him anywhere.Sometimes, giving an ultimatum helps. If the girl cannot bear to lose you, the 3rd party, she will break up with her boyfriend to be with you. If she cannot decide now, she will probably never be ready to decide about you. She may just want the best of both worlds. It is better to drop such a girl, because she may one day do same thing to you when you are together. That is, two-time you. At least, this has happened to some friends I know.You know, we often run into 'glitches' in our lives. The best person to listen to, may not be our friends, it may instead, be this little voice in all of us. Even during the darkest hour, we will sometimes hear a small voice inside, telling us what we should be doing instead.It could the 'missing' logical part of us. Our head.Magnifying the voice will sometimes lead us to the best solution to the problem at hand.Because I believe, that a relationship need not have so much pain before you enjoy the happiness. And inside us, we all know it. We just need to get around to do something about it.
copied from a block i saw.. haha somehow the guy sounds like me.... advice taken....i will start listening to myself..
A friend of mine is dating a girl who is attached. The girl said she like my friend more, but does not want to discuss about breaking up with her boyfriend. In their 'confusion', she ends up dating both guys for a period of time. Till now.My friend is tired. Staying on hurts. And hanging in mid-air like this doesn't seem to get him anywhere.Sometimes, giving an ultimatum helps. If the girl cannot bear to lose you, the 3rd party, she will break up with her boyfriend to be with you. If she cannot decide now, she will probably never be ready to decide about you. She may just want the best of both worlds. It is better to drop such a girl, because she may one day do same thing to you when you are together. That is, two-time you. At least, this has happened to some friends I know.You know, we often run into 'glitches' in our lives. The best person to listen to, may not be our friends, it may instead, be this little voice in all of us. Even during the darkest hour, we will sometimes hear a small voice inside, telling us what we should be doing instead.It could the 'missing' logical part of us. Our head.Magnifying the voice will sometimes lead us to the best solution to the problem at hand.Because I believe, that a relationship need not have so much pain before you enjoy the happiness. And inside us, we all know it. We just need to get around to do something about it.
copied from a block i saw.. haha somehow the guy sounds like me.... advice taken....i will start listening to myself..
Thursday, September 15, 2005
WHy do i even CARE~!
I concluded.. she think i am some piece of shit that she can bloody kick me around and fucking lie to me... Sigh.. 1 yr plus of friendship... to think that i like her for so bloody long... in the end she chose to avoid me... to go to zhiyou's room. WTF~! u barely know him for 3 weeks in chatting? and you do tat to me? someone who u know for 1 yr plus? GO TO HELL...
You think you are really that beautiful and stuff and that the fucking world revolves around u?
No~! it's not true... U think the guys that chase you are after u? NO~! they are juz after your looks your body...if you dun wan to bloody value yourself as a girl then u can carry living your life this way. Maybe u just love the attention that they give u... U love the sweet talk but in fact the reason why they do tat is so that they can get into your pants...
I am utterly disappointed in you... It hurts so bad that i am getting numb... i feel like drowning myself in alcohol everyday.. i even have the urge to bloody slit my own hands... why do i have such feelings? i dun wan such feelings.~! everyday i am i like some walking zombie... WHY~!!! FOR WAT?/? i dunno... i dun wan such feelings.. i dun wan to make myself sooo bloody miserable for someone who will never treasure me.. who will never waste her time on me... maybe if i were to disappear tmr u wont even know that i am gone...
Y cant you open ur bloody eyes and c wat's really going on?? U really think junjie liked you last time? you really think lawrance liked u for who u are ? why do u think zhiyou is interested in you? Is it cos of the momo incident or is it he likes u for who u are? DO you really know him after chatting with him for wat? 3 weeks max? I am nOT gonna wish u happiness.. cos i know you are not gonna get it...
i hope someday u will understand how hurted i am but i guess u will never know.. there will always be guy A.B.C chasing after you.. To you i am juz a diaposable softtoy...
Stop giving me all you lies and excuses.. i have gave you the benefit of the doubt for too long...
this is gonna be the last time i am ever gonna write anything about u.. this is the last time i am gonna shred my heart into 1 million pieces because of u...how silly can i get..? get myself heartbroken cos of u for 3 times~!! i muz be the silliest guy on earth....
y do i ever bother liking someone who never cares for me... who juz treat me like filth...?
i never ever wanna feel this way anymore... enough of my suicidal thoughts.... i mustnt lose the dignity of a guy... i have my ego too...there's only so much hurt i can take....
You think you are really that beautiful and stuff and that the fucking world revolves around u?
No~! it's not true... U think the guys that chase you are after u? NO~! they are juz after your looks your body...if you dun wan to bloody value yourself as a girl then u can carry living your life this way. Maybe u just love the attention that they give u... U love the sweet talk but in fact the reason why they do tat is so that they can get into your pants...
I am utterly disappointed in you... It hurts so bad that i am getting numb... i feel like drowning myself in alcohol everyday.. i even have the urge to bloody slit my own hands... why do i have such feelings? i dun wan such feelings.~! everyday i am i like some walking zombie... WHY~!!! FOR WAT?/? i dunno... i dun wan such feelings.. i dun wan to make myself sooo bloody miserable for someone who will never treasure me.. who will never waste her time on me... maybe if i were to disappear tmr u wont even know that i am gone...
Y cant you open ur bloody eyes and c wat's really going on?? U really think junjie liked you last time? you really think lawrance liked u for who u are ? why do u think zhiyou is interested in you? Is it cos of the momo incident or is it he likes u for who u are? DO you really know him after chatting with him for wat? 3 weeks max? I am nOT gonna wish u happiness.. cos i know you are not gonna get it...
i hope someday u will understand how hurted i am but i guess u will never know.. there will always be guy A.B.C chasing after you.. To you i am juz a diaposable softtoy...
Stop giving me all you lies and excuses.. i have gave you the benefit of the doubt for too long...
this is gonna be the last time i am ever gonna write anything about u.. this is the last time i am gonna shred my heart into 1 million pieces because of u...how silly can i get..? get myself heartbroken cos of u for 3 times~!! i muz be the silliest guy on earth....
y do i ever bother liking someone who never cares for me... who juz treat me like filth...?
i never ever wanna feel this way anymore... enough of my suicidal thoughts.... i mustnt lose the dignity of a guy... i have my ego too...there's only so much hurt i can take....
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
UnResolved`
finally i finally went to her room and confront her with the issue... she told me she isnt together with him yet.. but is it true ? i dun know... halfway throughout the conversation she msg someone on hp n she told me it's replying her mom. which i give the benefit of the doubt to cos her mom is really looking for her.i finally told her about my unhappiness that she does not trust me enough to share things with me. i dint told her exactly but i really hate it when she dun tell me stuff tat involves me... I told her how worried i was how jealous i was.. i dunno why i tell her all that shit but yar i just let it off my chest.. perhaps it's not a wise thing to do... perhaps i shouldnt have told her all that stuff.. but i really really am very hurted now... i no longer care the consequences. maybe i will never talk to her again after this and we cant even be friends. but once thing i am sure...
i was never friends with her. i wanted her to be my everything.
maybe i just cant say sweet things about you all the time but everything that i have ever spoken to you i really mean it. maybe i dun have enough experience in relationship and stuff that's why i do really have the habit of telling someone that i miss her a lot and stuff.. maybe i am just this weird idiot that is just a passerby in your life.
Anyway this matter is still unresolved from your side. although i can try to understand and give you the benefit of the doubt that you fell asleep cos of medication. i wonder if u are juz pretending to sleep so that you do not tackle the issue. i hope it's not the latter although i choose the believe the first one.
you got to think it over and i cant tell you what to do. but i guess wanna you to be happy. i have felt enough hurt tat i no longer want to be hurt anymore. to allow pple to attack my weak side. to show my weak side to pple. but i dunno whenever it comes to you, i cant help it.. sighz...
relaly hope taht she can really spend time to think it over.
maybe we aint gonna be friends anymore but i still wish you all the best. be matured and be please be honest with me.i want to resolve this shit..
i was never friends with her. i wanted her to be my everything.
maybe i just cant say sweet things about you all the time but everything that i have ever spoken to you i really mean it. maybe i dun have enough experience in relationship and stuff that's why i do really have the habit of telling someone that i miss her a lot and stuff.. maybe i am just this weird idiot that is just a passerby in your life.
Anyway this matter is still unresolved from your side. although i can try to understand and give you the benefit of the doubt that you fell asleep cos of medication. i wonder if u are juz pretending to sleep so that you do not tackle the issue. i hope it's not the latter although i choose the believe the first one.
you got to think it over and i cant tell you what to do. but i guess wanna you to be happy. i have felt enough hurt tat i no longer want to be hurt anymore. to allow pple to attack my weak side. to show my weak side to pple. but i dunno whenever it comes to you, i cant help it.. sighz...
relaly hope taht she can really spend time to think it over.
maybe we aint gonna be friends anymore but i still wish you all the best. be matured and be please be honest with me.i want to resolve this shit..
Monday, September 12, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Quoted from my fren's blog.. i think it's very meaningful
"Mary and Susan have been friends for years. They grew up together and attended the same schools. They are now both in their 40's, and both have great careers. They both have a similar upbringing - same education, same family values, similar support and financial position.But there was one main difference.Mary never seemed to have enough time. She watched her life long friend Susan. She had similar responsibilities and interests. Susanhad a career, she had three children, and she had her hobbies, one of which included golf.Over lunch, Susan was telling Mary about the golf game that she played last weekend. "Susan, where do you find the time to play golf?" askedMary. "I never seem to have the time, now with the children older and doing their own thing I thought I would have time to play golf like wedid when we were in college."Susan looked at Mary and laughed, "Mary, we both have the same hours in a day. You do have the time to play golf!"With a sigh Mary replied, "That's easy for you to say. I never seem to have time. My work takes so much of my time. I am in the office at7:30; I leave at 6:30 in the evening.By the time I get home and have dinner, it is 8:00! And then I usually have a briefcase full of work. The weekends are full of more work.Just to keep up, I have to put in the hours. You know what it is like!""Of course, I know what it is like," Susan said. "But what would happen tomorrow if you got sick? Who would do the work?""Sick. Who has time to get sick!" exclaimed Mary. "But if I did get sick, someone else would do the work, I suppose.""You know something, Mary; I used to be like you. I worked night and day and of course on weekends. When I got home I was exhausted but Iwould push myself and read my children a bedtime story. By the time I went to bed, I would be more than exhausted. The boss I had was verydemanding. She was there early in the morning, late at night, and she always worked weekends.I felt I had to do the same - I needed the job to help support my family -just as you did. But then I had a change of bosses. The man I worked for was older and much wiser, I might add! Of course, I continued to work the hours I had been working.One day he came to my desk and passed me a card that had a quote on it which said, 'What I do today is important, because I will never havetoday again' - and then he left.I sat there stunned. I suddenly thought of what was important to me.While my work was important, I realised my children were more important. I also realised that time for me was important. It was 4:30, the official closing time of the office. I straightened my desk, felt a twinge of guilt about leaving, but I forced myself to leave.I was home by 5:00. My children and husband were surprised. I had a wonderful evening. It was not a chore to read that bedtime story thatevening."Mary was looking at her friend thoughtfully and then questioned Susan about the work she had left on her desk. Susan replied, "I never thought this possible, but I actually accomplished more the next day than I had in weeks. As I was leaving the next day I stopped at my new boss's office and thanked him for the quote.He told me a story about advice his dad had given him many years ago when he was working night and day.
He referred to it as 'Balance of Life'.His dad told him to keep balance in his work, in his family life and in time for himself. He explained to me, while all aspects of our lifeare important, without a balance, you become addicted and like all addictions you lose:- No balance with your family - you lose them- No balance with your work - you lose your perspective and you actually lose focus on theimportant aspects of your job.- No balance with yourself - you forget who you are and when you retire you have nothing! Or worse than that, if you lose your jobthrough a company sale or downsizing you lose your identity.He went on to tell me that who we are is NOT what we do to make aliving.Who we are is a balance of our family, our work, ourselves! It truly was the best advice I ever received."Mary took a drink of her tea and tearfully looked at her friend, "But I would never get my work done if I left at 4:30!"
Susan lookedthoughtfully at her, "When you go to work on Monday1. Look at what you have on your desk2. Make a list of everything you have to get done3. And beside that list write the impact of not doing it4. Then focus only on the top three items that have the most impact.5. Do that everyday for a week.At first, you will find it difficult to leave. But, after awhile, you will find that you will have more energy, and you will be more focused in your work because you have BALANCE! There are times when we have to lose balance- a special project at work, or a family matter at home but consciously focusing on balance keeps everything in check."Mary smiled at her friend, "Thanks for talking with me. We have been friends for so long. Thank heavens I have balance with our friendship!You have convinced me. I will leave the work in my briefcase this weekend.On Monday, I will make the list first thing. Perhaps next weekend, I will have the time to go golfing with you!""Balance of Life" - important for us ALL!They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realisethat you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is driftingfurther and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meetanyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why youare doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make adecision.You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'djust like to be a contender!What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out."
"Mary and Susan have been friends for years. They grew up together and attended the same schools. They are now both in their 40's, and both have great careers. They both have a similar upbringing - same education, same family values, similar support and financial position.But there was one main difference.Mary never seemed to have enough time. She watched her life long friend Susan. She had similar responsibilities and interests. Susanhad a career, she had three children, and she had her hobbies, one of which included golf.Over lunch, Susan was telling Mary about the golf game that she played last weekend. "Susan, where do you find the time to play golf?" askedMary. "I never seem to have the time, now with the children older and doing their own thing I thought I would have time to play golf like wedid when we were in college."Susan looked at Mary and laughed, "Mary, we both have the same hours in a day. You do have the time to play golf!"With a sigh Mary replied, "That's easy for you to say. I never seem to have time. My work takes so much of my time. I am in the office at7:30; I leave at 6:30 in the evening.By the time I get home and have dinner, it is 8:00! And then I usually have a briefcase full of work. The weekends are full of more work.Just to keep up, I have to put in the hours. You know what it is like!""Of course, I know what it is like," Susan said. "But what would happen tomorrow if you got sick? Who would do the work?""Sick. Who has time to get sick!" exclaimed Mary. "But if I did get sick, someone else would do the work, I suppose.""You know something, Mary; I used to be like you. I worked night and day and of course on weekends. When I got home I was exhausted but Iwould push myself and read my children a bedtime story. By the time I went to bed, I would be more than exhausted. The boss I had was verydemanding. She was there early in the morning, late at night, and she always worked weekends.I felt I had to do the same - I needed the job to help support my family -just as you did. But then I had a change of bosses. The man I worked for was older and much wiser, I might add! Of course, I continued to work the hours I had been working.One day he came to my desk and passed me a card that had a quote on it which said, 'What I do today is important, because I will never havetoday again' - and then he left.I sat there stunned. I suddenly thought of what was important to me.While my work was important, I realised my children were more important. I also realised that time for me was important. It was 4:30, the official closing time of the office. I straightened my desk, felt a twinge of guilt about leaving, but I forced myself to leave.I was home by 5:00. My children and husband were surprised. I had a wonderful evening. It was not a chore to read that bedtime story thatevening."Mary was looking at her friend thoughtfully and then questioned Susan about the work she had left on her desk. Susan replied, "I never thought this possible, but I actually accomplished more the next day than I had in weeks. As I was leaving the next day I stopped at my new boss's office and thanked him for the quote.He told me a story about advice his dad had given him many years ago when he was working night and day.
He referred to it as 'Balance of Life'.His dad told him to keep balance in his work, in his family life and in time for himself. He explained to me, while all aspects of our lifeare important, without a balance, you become addicted and like all addictions you lose:- No balance with your family - you lose them- No balance with your work - you lose your perspective and you actually lose focus on theimportant aspects of your job.- No balance with yourself - you forget who you are and when you retire you have nothing! Or worse than that, if you lose your jobthrough a company sale or downsizing you lose your identity.He went on to tell me that who we are is NOT what we do to make aliving.Who we are is a balance of our family, our work, ourselves! It truly was the best advice I ever received."Mary took a drink of her tea and tearfully looked at her friend, "But I would never get my work done if I left at 4:30!"
Susan lookedthoughtfully at her, "When you go to work on Monday1. Look at what you have on your desk2. Make a list of everything you have to get done3. And beside that list write the impact of not doing it4. Then focus only on the top three items that have the most impact.5. Do that everyday for a week.At first, you will find it difficult to leave. But, after awhile, you will find that you will have more energy, and you will be more focused in your work because you have BALANCE! There are times when we have to lose balance- a special project at work, or a family matter at home but consciously focusing on balance keeps everything in check."Mary smiled at her friend, "Thanks for talking with me. We have been friends for so long. Thank heavens I have balance with our friendship!You have convinced me. I will leave the work in my briefcase this weekend.On Monday, I will make the list first thing. Perhaps next weekend, I will have the time to go golfing with you!""Balance of Life" - important for us ALL!They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realising that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realisethat you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is driftingfurther and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meetanyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why youare doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make adecision.You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'djust like to be a contender!What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out."
Thursday, September 01, 2005
MOOD ANALYSIS TEST
You don't need anxiety and problems. All you really seek is a conflict free environment which can offer peace and mental security. You don't like the idea of being alone and, whatever the reason, at this time of your life you feel as if you are being 'left out'. What you really need is perhaps some 'tender loving care'.
Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.
oh man.. i really think the test is really accurate.. it's scary sometimes how some tests seems to be so damn accurate... oh well.. anyway the link for the site is here...
http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/
Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.
oh man.. i really think the test is really accurate.. it's scary sometimes how some tests seems to be so damn accurate... oh well.. anyway the link for the site is here...
http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/
sigh
sigh... dint even managed to fight for it cos i was too busy with ihg... keep wanting to do something bout it but in the end... dunno what to say and do anymore.. sigh... now she tells me tat she's attached.. really dunno how to answer her when she say comments..
i wanna say tat i wan to prove to her that i should be the one for her but...
sighz.. i guess it's juz like tat..haiz... i wish her happiness..
anyway damn pissed off right now... over xy again.. i dun believe it.. she lost her hp and everything so i juz pei her lor since i couldnt slp then i ask her to bloody wait for me cos i wan to go toilet. then in the end i went down she left le...
damn damn damn pissed off.. if she think tat i wont worry bout her then she's bloody wrong. i saw her walking down n was worried so i followed behind her and realised she went to find lawrance which piss me off even further.. y cant she juz tell me she finding lawrance.. GO to hell...
well i guess now i dun have to bother about anything and juz conc on my studies le... although it's easier said than done.. i think there's something really wrong with me. why is it tat i always end up being the one who is upset... i wan to stop this idiotic vicious cycle... hate it hate it hate it.. no longer gonna care anymore.. nnb ccb~! i am so damn bloody pissed lar... i hao xin pple take me for fucking granted ... go to hell...
i wanna say tat i wan to prove to her that i should be the one for her but...
sighz.. i guess it's juz like tat..haiz... i wish her happiness..
anyway damn pissed off right now... over xy again.. i dun believe it.. she lost her hp and everything so i juz pei her lor since i couldnt slp then i ask her to bloody wait for me cos i wan to go toilet. then in the end i went down she left le...
damn damn damn pissed off.. if she think tat i wont worry bout her then she's bloody wrong. i saw her walking down n was worried so i followed behind her and realised she went to find lawrance which piss me off even further.. y cant she juz tell me she finding lawrance.. GO to hell...
well i guess now i dun have to bother about anything and juz conc on my studies le... although it's easier said than done.. i think there's something really wrong with me. why is it tat i always end up being the one who is upset... i wan to stop this idiotic vicious cycle... hate it hate it hate it.. no longer gonna care anymore.. nnb ccb~! i am so damn bloody pissed lar... i hao xin pple take me for fucking granted ... go to hell...
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