GOODBYE 2006

Looking back at 2006...

It has really been a roller coaster year... happiness and sorrow, i experience it all in this year...

From getting to know Adele, getting together to breaking up....
From playing a major part in IHG to unable to play properly and being hampered by the same
injury that plagued me during army days...
From being a slacker to a somewat more motivated person...
From having Yaozong as my opposite neighbour to having Ron instead...(although both are my brothers)
From getting medicore results to getting A+ for one of my module...
From studying in the dining hall to studying in the JCRC room...
From sleeping with a person by my side to sleeping with an extra pillow by my side...
From a somewhat directionless lost soul to a person who knows clearly what he wants...
From totally clueless about cooking to knowing how to bake cookies and cheesecakes( though pple say not tat nice..)
From not knowing anything about coaching handball to the handball captain of KR... ( still learning hard...)

gonna have to part with a lot of my frens whom i became close to during my stay in KR.. suddenly the hall seems very different. Will miss you guys. Will miss YOU.

What an eventful year..!!








How did you spend your year? What's your resolution for the new year?

shall attempt to post something happier besides the usual whining and complaining...

went with qingyou darren and Mallery on tuesday to JB. managed to buy a funky spectacles and also DVDs... superb..=)


Then while we were walking along citysquare we suddenly saw something that caught our eye.. guesss wat was it??

ERN WEI LOOKALIKE!!! Apparently it's some male model in malaysia...

cool right? =)

just wanna thank my frens for those encouraging words.. Will try my best to overcome it...

Realised that time really flies man.. As i look back at my 2.5 yrs in KR, i realised that there are many special memories, especially with my batch of yr3s.. Still can remember us being yr1s... Getting drunk, playing poker, Being mario to a particular person to an extent that there are code word given to me.. things like west coast very cloudy and jurong very cloudy.. hahz...

A few regrets along the way but i guess that's how pple grow up. From a blur freshie to a senior in hall, i must say all of us really went a long way. Always will treasure the moments shared with special pple such as ron, yz, elaine, teckie, janice, honjie, shuqi etc... Yr1 must have been one of the most fun period of time.(minus the fact that i dint study and just play play play)

still can remember how everybody was stunned that we got together and the other beautiful memories along the way. i guess i took you for granted initially but i must still thank you for the moments we have together. guess i will not be calling someone else Dear for a while... Just hope that this journey together with me has been a enjoyable one for you...

在我眼裡妳永遠最美　連妳一個微笑也都會讓我醉
妳所謂的幸福我想給　以為手不放開就是痴心絕對
太愚昧　難道　笑容沒了　距離有了　快樂也走了
還是　真心死了　彼此不信任了　終於懂了 真的

很想說有妳是幸福的　很想說我的心是妳的
很想說妳真的誤解了　很想說妳真的忘記了　My Love~

笑容沒了　距離有了　快樂也走了
還是 真心死了　彼此不信任了　終於懂了　真的

很想說有妳是幸福的　很想說我的心是妳的
很想說妳真的誤解了　很想說妳真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼妳的　很想說愛妳是自由的
很想說妳是否聽見了　很想說妳真的忘記了

愛了　就有堅持理由　別說　我會留在路口
不會走　愛妳會直到最後

很想說有妳是幸福的　很想說我的心是妳的
很想說妳真的誤解了　很想說妳真的忘記了
很想說會好好疼妳的　很想說愛妳是自由的
很想說妳是否聽見了　很想說我們可不可以　復合

This chapter in my life is now really closed for good...



i had a impression that things were gg fine during the examinations period. somehow after the exams periods things change, things change...

It's hard being Strong in front of pple when sometimes deep inside u feel like a wreck.. esp when there are pple whom u never met for a long while and the first thing they do is to ask some really insensitive things and expect me to smile...

i gues this is what happens when expectations cant be met. but yet all of us are guilty of having expectations on pple. Expected to perform a role of a handball captain., expected to be a frenly senior, expected to win the trophy etc...



Quote of the day: Mario get points for hitting the wall.

somehow not really looking forward to christmas...

Been unfocused on some aspect of my life. I need to prioritise some stuff in order for me to move forward.


Next SEmester Aim
1. My future planning. train my knee to my desired fitness.

2. DEan's LISt... can it do it?
must at least get one dean's list before i graduate...

3. IHG handball title. It's getting tougher cos key players cant play but it's a test of my manmanagement, the battle of wits and also who wants it more...






We keep talking about yr4 team next yr... hopefully this can be achieved.. cos i am really looking forward to it..

I need a fridge.. anyone got lobang let me know?? thanks thanks thanks1

Learned quite a few things from an ex accountant today with regards on the money system. Thing such as legal tender, federal reserve ratio etc.. Was really a very rewarding day.. glad that i went for the course today...


REalised that i most likely cant make it for my 04 christmas party this fri.. sigh.. too bad i guess..


How are you spending your christmas?
squeezing with the rest of the world in orchard?
nuaing at home playing dota?
Chionging?

Thinner days...
Where got pple use racer shoes to play handball, basketball, soccer, frisbee, vollyball one? hee

ans: me when i am yr 1.. madness.... 

Realised that Most of my close frens in hall are all handballers.... 

Food for thought:

Absence Makes The Heart Grows Fonder VS Out Of Sight, Out Of Mind.


Which one do you believe in?

today we just had the 2nd training for the holidays for handball.. Hmm.. i must say i am pretty disappointed with the attendance.
Also with injuried plaguing a few of my key players, the challenge for the trophy is even greater now.. But we will prevail! Must really think of way to make my players improve in time to be serious contenders of the trophy... I guess i must go revise my setplays and try to come up with something simpler but yet efficient to teach them.
But one thing i am glad is i c my first years improving greatly after each training. The awareness and the movements are all getting there. Only left the "telepathy" with one another tat's missing.

Do not want to place too much pressure on my senior players to perform as i think it will affect their overall performance and improvement in the game. Guess there must be a balance between Pushing them to their limit and overpushing them. Physical training must also be incorporated in the training i guess to get them to fit enough for the game.

Haven been goign out with a lot of frens lately.. seems like i am drifting away from some groups of frens... Shall make an effort to meet up with them occasionally to catch up on old times..

OHH by the way, i got a new PHONE!!!! hahha superb..! just hope this phone will last.!! finally i dun have to wait one day for me to receive MMS..!! yay..!!!

CHen chen ask me to update... but i dunno what to write!! hmm.. well... sorta feeling unappreciated now.. but well...*shrug*

MAhjong session in Ron's place was damn fun.. was itching to play mahjong since a long time ago.. SHall have another session when yaozong and junli comes back from hongkonG!

haven been gg out as much as i wanted to.. A lot of my plans has been foiled because of clashing schedules etc... Wanted very much to watch happy feets but i guess i have to resign myself to watching it on my laptop.

Been craving to catch a movie for a long time. I dunno why but i always enjoyed watching movies. I wan to play billard or pool. I wan to sing more ktv.... I wan to just go out and enjoy quality time with my frens.

Once next week starts i guess i would have less time to hang out with my frens as i have to prepare training programs etc for hall... Hope that i can find out more and improve my knowledge on some stuff so that i can achieve my aims.

I want to be able to clearly know what i wan...

tots of the day

Hall is gonna be so different now that so many of pple are gg overseas. All the memories that we share etc..
Pple like my dear neighbour Yz, my ex neighbours Robin etc.. Sighz.. guess i will miss them.

I think you also understand the feeling, after u left and came over to another hall during the last semester of your stay in NUS.

I think i am getting old......

哎哟 吉他谁教你的

我生下来就会啊 你不知道啊

哎哟 屁咧

hahaz.. cool... guess where this is from?

Dear Wei Zheng

The format of the help sheet has been reiterated several times during the classes.

Although we do understand your position, they are examination regulations that we need to observe. In view of this, we are regrettable that we would not be able to alter the format of the help sheet at this juncture.

Warmest regards

SL Ong


Sigh... Here goes 3 days of effort in writing my helpsheet... Should have studied other modules and leave the helpsheet to do later...

countdown to exams: 3 days...

the knee is still swollen even now.. it's been a few weeks since i last injured it.. sigh...
slowly gaining back the strength. have to train in order to aid my recovery after ops..

Can i still fulfill my duties as a handball captain? organise trainings plus come up with training plans etc... can i still ensure that handball clinch the gold medal which has been eluding us?
i really dunno.. dun really want to bother about such issues for now.. For now it's just mug n mug... should have attended more lectures...


handball is a team sports. Everybody MUST want to win and improve themselves in order to acheive greater heights. I just hope everybody has the same desire that i have to win...

Check out this babe guys..
hahaz.. i think she's hot.. hehe


http://youtube.com/watch?v=yfD98iGig6A&mode=related&search=

thought provoking show

It's really been a while since i last blogged.. so many things have happened..

jianwei, i think i might really have to go for ops... I DUN WANNA DOWNGRADE!!! seeking another opinion now.. to c if the damage is really that bad such that ops is really necessary. cos it dint feel as bad as the last knee...


anyway just watched "I not stupid 2". I must say that it's really a thought provoking show... the issues addressed are really what's happening to most people now. At least i feel that i can relate to it.. Since when was the last time u received a praise? when was the last time u praised someone? We all forgotten that sometimes it's this praise and encouragement that keeps people gg...

Treasure those around you and try to look at their strengths and not pick on their weakness.
Seeking the key to be able to communicate better with people around me.

SOUND advice from a friend

last tim e i also always think i got no interest in studying so i keep doing nussu stuff
now i graduat le
i graduate with no skills
as in with regards to my academics
and i tink my brain is working worse than b4 i came into uni
den when you think back
you are wastin all the money dat you have been paying
den when wanna look for job
i say i dun wanna go into stats
ppl will ask
dun like still go in
so
please fa fen tu qiang
STUDY
dun be like me
you will regret de


suddenly i feel very motivated to study.... thanks for the kind advice!!!

hearts

Handball trials was fun!!! although initially it seems like only very few pple turn up for it. but eventually the crowd came... The yr1s showed good potential and it seems like we will be having a healthy group of yr1s potentials in the team...

As for the seniors... It's now our turn to STEP up and be the role model for the juniors.. It's time for us to take up more responsibility to bring up the yr1s and also to improve in our own game... I am pleasantly surprised by the marked improvement of some of the seniors and i hope that in time to come we will have a strong core team to challenge for the IHG trophy.... Also hope that more pple will be interested in the sports...

Speaking of which... I seem to be missing a lot of handballs... just cant track back where the balls are.. think it's time to buy some new balls... KEMPA maybe? hahz...


hope that tmr's trial will be a blast too!

tell me how to understand someone who do not open up to u?

Had a funny dream yesterday... wonder what it means... but i enjoyed it.. =)

When Can I Do This Again? Sigh... Really hoping to recover from my injuries soon... 

DND pics. Boxing theme table..

 

Growing sick of stuff

Growing sick of so many things in my life right now.. sigh......


Sick of distance coming between me and so many friends but yet unable( some unbothered) to care...

Sick of being responsible... Sick of being taken for granted.. Growing sick of taking pple around me for granted... Sick of being arrowed... Sick of underachieving..

Growing sick of being judged even before doing some stuff. Growing sick of having to care about what pple think about me...

Growing sick of my phone being stolen from me every half a year. Growing sick of my brand new nike shoe being stolen from me. Growing sick of my injuries.

Growing sick of having to live up to pple expectations. Growing sick of me being so moody lately.

Growing sick of seeing myself grow fatter by the minute and yet unmotivated to train.

Growing sick of keeping blanking out when i attempt to study. Growing sick of growing sick of stuff...

Growing sick of all my flaws.. There are just so many things to improve on!

Somehow recently i just feel very sian diao for nothing.. think i am just weird.... Do guys have PMS??? cos this guy here is pmsing...

Chasing Cars... damn sad song..

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

been really unlucky recently... hp lost, even my new nike shoe that i bought from hongkong also kana kop by dunno.. left it outside my room then it can suddenly disappear sia... kaoz..

anyway on a brighter note, i went JB with E blk pple on friday.. hahaz.. think we intended to sing ktv but dint have a chance.. bought a few DVDs and i pampered myself and dye n highlighted my hair.. hahaz.. shiok!!

injured my knee on thurs during handball match against B blk.. was very disappointed as i really wanted to play for that match. sigh... I just hope it's not serious...*fingers crossed*

Think i really dunno how to take care of myself... even my tuition kid commented to me that he always see me injured... Been injured ever since the field soccer match that i played about more than a month ago... dunno why it takes sooooo long to recover. SIgh.. think i should give myself more time before i rushed into training.. gonna do more exercise to train the muscles to support my knees and ankles..

anyway on a brighter note, just wanna blog about kR DND. It was a real success despite the sucky MC which everybody wanna kill.. Where else can we dressed like a tree or for that matter our favourite street fighter characters? It was really a fun filled event with lotsa phototaking due to the fact that everybody dressed up according to their table themes. WE have pple dressing up as characters in LORD OF THE RING, TOY STORY, STREET FIGHTER, POWERPUFF GIRLS, GEISHAS, SUPER MARIO etc etc

glad i went for DND... i will miss the pple gg for exchange next sem... =(

sitting in the CPLC waiting for my turn to print the lecture notes... apparantly some bugger printed more than 50 MB of notes.... WTH... there are liek 4-5 pple in front of me as i wait for my turn... irritating... Guess i will be late for the 2nd part of my lecture le...

On a dif note, had my final handball training for IBG this morning... according to stamford, a lot of yr1s had promised to wake up to train but ended up last min Pang Seh... Kinda feel for stamford as it's not a good feeling to be pangseh... Hope that the training that i organise for IHG wont have as many psk... (*psk means pang seh kias). The training went on quite well despite the poor attendance. But i must admit our defense still sucks. I guess it's probably because we are lazy and very laid back. Even for our attack, the waves were sloppy and dint have the urgency... But i am very confident that during the match tmr, KEntRIdge Hall will be rewarded with a different E blk team altogether.. Pretty looking forward to the competition tmr..

hmm.. lotsa pple queuing in front of me.. better chop queue first..

李玖哲 - 影子

我们 曾爱的疯狂
为追求感觉
就拼命去闯
我们 曾太过健忘
来不及坚信
徒增了悲伤

是谁喜欢了对方
才让平淡推翻了过往
曾经如果在一样
未来不在那方向
彻夜的沉默却还在心上

若你面向下个夕阳
迎接幸福光芒
我当影子慢慢拉长
如果你累或孤单需要力量
回过头我永远
会在身旁

我们 曾后悔失望
争执的借口
太冠冕堂皇
我们 曾遍体鳞伤
失去了交集
别失去方向

是谁喜欢了对方
才让平淡推翻了过往
曾经如果在一样
未来不在那方向
彻夜的沉默却还在心上

若你面向下个夕阳
迎接幸福光芒
我当影子慢慢拉长
如果你累或孤单需要力量
回过头我永远
会在身旁

不用在害怕
因我们踏着相同的步伐
我选择这样去守护干脆陪伴你流浪
我的爱捧着你往自由去飞翔

若你面向下个夕阳
迎接幸福光芒
我当影子慢慢拉长
如果你累或孤单需要力量
回过头我永远
会在身旁
前方的你永远
在我心上

i cant believe that i forsake 2 very important things just for work today... N up to now i got NOTHING TO DO~! haven even get the Singtel shirt yet.. hmm...
ARGH!


Anyway later will the IBG basketball finals. E blk will be pitting their skills with B blk.. well... It feels weird so far that i haven been participating much with ibg sports this year as i was very involved the past 2 years. I remember myself playing quite a lot of sports last year... Having to sit out for basketball takraw and soccer sucks. But of course i am glad that our blk is winning so far. In fact we had won quite convincing. Our current batch of Yr1 are pretty good in the area of sports and i am pretty sure there are those who are very good in the cultural areas.

gonna have a Handball meeting later in the evening but i have yet to prepare what i want to say. hmm.. maybe i should get down to it now.

suddenly i just miss you a lot... i also dunno y...

tell me how to control this fiery temper of mine? cos it just keep seeping out even though i feel that i have already controlled my temper a lot le... Maybe it's just me...

Yesterday was Basketball guys and girls for IBG. Both the guys and gers won quite convincingly. For the first time in my 3 years in KR, i had to stand at the sideline and JUST watch the match instead of being one of the players to contribute to the team.
HATE the feeling of being injured...
really hope that i can recover back in time to be able to contribute the way i know best to the team. I know that there are many ways to contribute to the team. But i feel that i contribute best when i am playing...

COLLIDE

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Wat an ironic day today is... 21th aug...

我们是两条平行线 再没有任何交叉点


I remember when i was in army. there was a period of time where a series of unfortunate events happened to me. First i injured my ankle during basketball training. then i was removed from the 169th Basic Airborne Course which most of my company went for just because i had medical appt for my ankle on the day of the confirmation of namelist. the ironic part is that my name was in the namelist all along till the last min. For those who dunno, U must have pass the airborne course and get the airborne wing before u can get your red beret.

The thing about army is that if u dint go according to the training program which was airborne course, u have to cover the guard duty and other saikang for those who are attending the course. Of cos i endured the painful moments of seeing my platoon mates getting their red beret when i was still wearing the jockey cap. Let just say that all commandos hold their red beret with pride and this makes me very down during that period of time.

Before long it was the atec period. WE fought and train hard as we want to win the best combat unit honour and march in NDP as guard of honour. all of us gave our best and managed to clinch a recon 1 status for one of our mission with the other 2 at recon 2A. i remember falling into a trench with my mg when i was in a middle of a mission and injuring my knee. then after while waiting for the results to come as to who won the best combat unit, i injured my knee again. Those who injure their knee b4 will know tat it's not a pleasant experience at all.. imagine the joint of your knee coming out of place. It's one of the most painful experience i encountered.

SO the specialist diagnosed that my ACL ligament and my lateral menicus was totally torn. I have to go operation in order to recover and it will be only a 90% recovery. With heavy heart i went for the operation.

dont u realised that sometimes bad news dun just occur once? for my case they rain down on me mercilessly. First i received news that the results for atec was out but wasnt wat u expected. we got the best company and best platoon but we lost the ultimate honour of the best combat unit due to no fault of ours. We lost because apparantly some logistic pple complain to saf hotline about some stuff. about some logistic problem. So in the end we were DISQUALIFIED even though WE WERE MUCH BETTER and had an average of Recon 2A and above.
Shortly after that i receive news that i was being downgraded and being posted out by my S3. It was then that i was really depressed because my OC had previously promised to try to keep me in the unit and upgrade me when i recover.

IT FELT LIKE THE END OF THE WORLD THEN.

this is exactly the feeling i am feeling right now.
first this then tat. I hold only a few things with importance and within a few days i have lost some of it. I dunno how to express this feeling. it makes you understand that we are just weak mortals. it's through all this hardship that makes a man. i understand that.. but it's just so hard...

i am just a weak mortal after all...

IRIS

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Words dun mean anything when there is no action to back it up...
I shall make sure that i keep my promises to you...

LAST DAY OF HKUST~ group photo.. too bad my dear is not around~

happy moments

took the picture quite some time ago.. during our dinner at Billy bomber~





DInner at Thai Express~~ she's damn cute i tell u...=P



I must admit this photo that she took make me look good..(not that i am not... wohahaha)

Life's a constant struggle

Life is a constant struggle isnt it?
be it struggle to catch up on our sch work, expectations, all of us are all struggling in life's journey.

Why is tat so? diamonds are made from carbon. But the earth composes mainly of carbon. Why is it that diamonds are so rare? before the diamond can be formed, the carbon has to go through a long period of high temperature and pressure..


Life is like tat isnt it? Only by experiencing life's tests and hardship can we sparkle and shine like a diamond...

like to share this story that i hold true in my heart for some time now.


There was this wise man who lived in this mountain. It is said that he is so wise that there is no questions that he cannot answer. There was this young punk who wanted to shoot down this belief. So he pondered and pondered for a way to embarrase the wise man. Finally he thought of a brillant plan. And so with the ultimate plan that he had thought up, he went up to the mountain to seek the wise man.

When he got there, he took out a sparrow which he had caught earlier and held it in his hand. Then he proceeded to say to the wise man. " Wise man, they say you know the answer to all questions. Since you are so wise tell me this; Is this sparrow in my hand dead or alive?"

The plan was to crush the sparrow with his hand if the wise man say it's alive and let it go when the wise man say that it's dead.

The wise man just shook his head and looked at him. he said" Son, the fate of the sparrow is in your hand. YOU decide if you want that sparrow to be dead or alive"

LIKEWISE, your destiny is in your own hands. YOU and ONLY YOU decide what you want it to be. Advice can be given to ease you along the way but ULTIMATELY YOU DECIDE on what is it that you want...
ps: i know my english sucks but the main point here is to convey the idea and not essay writing.

yoz to pple who still bother to read my blog after i mia for so long!
will be gg hongkong tmr till the 24th of july. will be gg there for handball competition organised by the hongkong university of science and technology...=)
will be staying in their hostel for some time..

Anyway let me know if u all need anything from hongkong yar?
haha.. anyway this trip is proudly sponsored by chuan and associate.. =P they sponsor us each 1k for the trip cos stupid nus wont sponsor us anything... (kiam siap pple)

ciaoz! gg to pack my bag le!

decided to blog after such a long while.. gg hongkong on the 13th to 24th...

will be updating this blog more often from now on...

=P

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that i saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And i don't think i can look at this the same
But all these miles that seperate
Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life was overrated
But i hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything i know,and anywhere i go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

BAck from reservist... It is more like a adventure camp than a In camp training though. lol.. realised that i am really getting very unfit.
Read more books within these few days than i have done in a long long time.. Currently reading this book called "Blink". Saw Qinghuan talking about this book on his blog and decide to check it out.. Hmm.. i am still in the midst of finishing the book but i think it's a pretty interesting book about the power of intuition; snap judgement. There are many books that talk bout the power of making decisions fast. Books like think and grow rich etc. All these respect the power of our unconscious mind. Often we need to rely on it in our decision making. Therefore the importance of the snap judgement.. If we can hone this skill and harness it, i am pretty sure we can make it in life man!

Been thinking quite a lot about my future, about what i want to do. Life is really too short.. it passes so damn fast.!! 2 years later i am gg to have to start carving a career for myself in the working world. With my current grades i am pretty damn sure that i am not gg into Public Sectors. SHall make good use of these 2 years to find out what i really want to do in the future. Already have a concept in mind that i want to be either working in sales or marketing or banking. Dun like the concept of a fixed pay without any commission. somehow i just feel that your effort and input does not give you the outcome that you want.. I want something that i know if i put all my heart into it it can give me the rewards that i am seeking.. Have to start planning my future so that i can be able to take care of my family and my future family..

Key events will be happening to you in the coming few years. Are u fully prepared for it?

NAtion CAlls

Gonna go reservist tmr... Too bad this time a lot of my buddies wont be able to make it as they had deferred due to attachment. But oh well... i guess we can always meet up..!

Been spending a lot of time alone at home. It's damn boring i tell u... really want to start working soon... Anyone got ECON textbook to lend me? i want to read..!!!

I feel that i no longer have the urge to write blog. I am not too sure why. Maybe there's no topic to write?(impossible) haha... anyway i realised that my dad actually read MR brown's blog.. haha..

TO the block pple who are having fun in bintan now... $&#$@#&@#@!!!! i wan to join u all also lar!!! why must i have reservist on hte 18th and not the 19th!!!! haha.. no lar.. i just hope u all have lotsa fun.. organise a trip to sentosa or even malaysia soon?

Also anyone keen to go bangkok?trying to find pple to go there with me...=) do let me know k?


WAnyun!! let's go malaysia leh....=P

seems like the passion for handball is not spreading to the year 1s... hmm.. lets hope things improve.....

Bro jiayou k?i know it's a hard time for u... i can only hope things will turn out better for u... i am always just a phonecall away in the event that u need my help...jiayou...

next paper in about 7 hours time..cant get to slp!!!
argh~~

1 down 4 to go!!!!
looking forward to it finishing...

Exams in 2 weeks time... panic panic!!!!

I hope can score for the Integrated Resort CE3101 project... we spent bloody long hours doing it lar...JIAYOU!!!
anyway lao shu jiayou k? exams coming also right?

Cutie

I look like a cock in this picture.. But she look good.. oh well...=)




ISnt She CUTE?????
=P

















Okay enough of hao lianing.. hahaa.. shall go back to my lab.. rushing lab report now... hopefully can finish in time...


Anyway later i will be going for excursion!!! Quite cool hor.. haha.. very long never go excursion le. Feel young once again.. haha.=)

PPLE!!! i got exactly 3 weeks to exams.. guesss wat... There are mountain of work for me to settle.. Firstly the lab.. I tried to do only to realised that i dunno wat's all the CH.01 means... SHIt! must go find the TA before i can proceed.. guess when's the deadline? Yes ur right... Its today.... =(


i am so screwed

TIME TO MUG AND DIET LE!!!!



(munch munch..) OPPPsss....

Buddies for life

My best friend in army wrote this for me in his blog.. i think it's very well written. Really touched by it brother... although i cant really express myself as well as u, i will try my best to write something for u when i am more free.... currently rushing a lot of deadlines this week... about 6-7 deadlines? Brothers for life Bro!!

和你相识那年我们才十七岁。
和你相处的日子也只不过是七天。
懵懵懂懂的十七岁也没有踏下任何可见的足迹。
是缘分吧，十八岁那年我们再次相遇。
这时的我们已遗忘了对方，
你不认识我我不认识你。
你还记得吗？
我们就是在地狱里再次相遇的。
那地狱叫做新加坡第一突击营。

是缘分吗？ 你我睡觉的地方就只隔着两个衣橱。
是缘分吗？ 你我的“死党”都不是死党来的。
是缘分吗？ 你我就这样成为真正的死党。

两年四个月我们经历了风风雨雨，也差点经历离别。
你的倔强，你的坚持，让你终于能够在这地狱逗留。
就靠这一点我向你敬个礼。
其实地狱不知何时已变成了天堂。
我们都顺利的接下了我们的“红帽”，接下了我们的使命。
我们也都成为突击队里第四联第十二部队的一份子。
不是什么成绩但我为我们大家感到骄傲，
毕竟是从六十人选拔到最后的二十三人，
咱们的感情是如此的紧密。

一起受伤一起吃比萨的那晚你还记得吗？
在那一刻就是天堂。
一起赌球的日子你还记得吗？
在那一刻就是天堂。
一起打牌的日子你还记得吗？
在那一刻就是天堂。
一起完成任务的日子你还记得吗？
在那一刻就是天堂。

天无不散之宴席，我们的任期转眼间就过了。
虽然都在西边，但却在不同的学府深造。
虽然如此我们的兄弟情义依然不变。


我。。。去了你的宿舍探望你。。。。
你。。。热情招待。。。。
我。。。等待你的来临。。。。
你。。。却迟迟不来。。。。
你惭愧吗？
你当然不会惭愧因为我。。。。 讲爽的。哈哈

Unfocused me...

Spent some time thinking about what i have been doing and i realised that i have not been focused on my studies as much as i like to.

It's just very hard for me to focus on my studies now.. i have no idea why. I just dont have the urge to bury myself in the books... I know i should...

so here i am blogging... TO REMIND myself that i need to focus on my studies...!!! gonna aim for that 4.0 this sem... hopefully it's not too late for me yet.


beeboo says:
think of it this way...
beeboo says:
you know that you are not very focused..and you know u need to be focused..and u know that u are capable of achieving so much more if u become focused
beeboo says:
so why waste the chance?


i think it makes a lot of sense.. shall try to keep it in mind.. thanks

Team? wat Team???

Today i tried to hold my 2nd training for the team KR. Guess how many pple turn up? The answer is ONE.. That person is myself... jin xian joined me at 6 plus after his lessons.

i am utterly disgusted and disappointed at the attendance. I took all the trouble to think of what we are lacking and how we are going to train to improve. BUT YET... Sigh.. No one bother to come for training.. Most dun even bother to inform me that they are not coming... So tell me.. what's the point of me holding training when they dun even bother to come?

So what's this KR handball culture that KR pple like to proclaim? KR spirits? Seems to me it's more ghost than spirit...

Getter more and more sick of hall......

BEen a while since i updated my blog. yesterday marks the end of the major events that i signed up for this sem. the NUS openhouse. let's c wat events i have been doing this sem.

IHG handball
IHG basketball
Enterprise chair, ( opening of enterprise rm, Minibazaar, Sales of CNY goodies)
KR bazaar
Hall production 2006
FLV 2006, myriad of colours
Openhouse 2006.

Some other thigns coming up,

SHL 2006(Team KR)
Team NUS
Alumni day

haha... i think i am mad....



Anyway life have been pretty good to me recently.(except that stupid tuition kid cancel his tuition with me for good)

the best thing that happened in my life...

went for lessons today... realised that i have a lot of work to catch up on... sigh..

suddenly just felt that i signed up for too much things le... initially i wanted to be NUS openhouse PD. lucky thing i dint or else look at my present state now... HAven attended ANY meeting at all... mostly cos i was too busy with other projects or hall stuffs....

felt quite burned out about joining comms... decide NOT to join any comms next yr and juz focus totally on sch work and sports... probably join a culture thing or something..

feel tat i dint contribute as much as i wan to towards ALL my comms due to my busy schedule.. should not sign up so many things in the future.... should just conc on stuff that either benefits my pocket or towards my sch work or passion...


Anyway feel so lucky and blessed to be with u ger... u really brighten up my day everytime i c u...

Kr open was held succesfully at RP !!!

went to play handball with my hall pple in RP this morning... the alumni came along too.. It's supposed to be some kind of interaction between the alumni and the current KR residents and also a chance for all to play some good old handball.~

In my honest opinion i think that the KR wonderkids played quite well... hahaha... The KR wonderkids comprises of talents such as zackie, ron, jingxian, jing rui, gerrald and not forgetting huan chao... think all of them play quite well today. Initially there were some bad passes but as we start to warm up we can c much better cooperation blah blah blah...
However i tot i was very selfish during the last game.. juz kept trying to do the 2nd right move then shoot and stuff... dint allow the wave to proceed.. sigh... one tracked mind sia... perhaps i should juz be content being juz a pivot... but i really wan to learn how to play on the outside to bring in more dimension to my game n contribute more to the team... if yannick is not playing next yr( cross fingers) there is a lack of shooters around that can blast the ball past the keeper at 9 m or further...

really hope the yr1s and even the seniors can step up and improve on their gameplay for next yr.. hopefully we can achieve gold next yr...

damn... gotta do enterprise stuff again... i realised i hate to do accounts... should have gotten someone to do it for me....
=(

at long last flv is over... hall production is also gonna be over tonight... quite relieved that i am only left with one more project - nus openhouse-

just have to endure a bit more....



things are starting to look better... hahaa.. for tat i am really glad... yay!!!

computer

hmmm.. went pass my friendly neighbourhood computer shop yesterday then just out of impulse i went in to ask whether my laptop can be repair.. IT can!!! for about 500 plus... hmmm.. but i dunno can trust one or not leh... hmmm...

Wat should i do? sounds quite reasonable to me? perhaps i should go Sim lim to check out the situation...

I dunno what to expect.. sigh.. well... i think just let things flow by themselves n c how it goes..

Can u describe the feeling of disappointment of losing?

sigh... was really disappointed yesterday over the loss to RH... Think there were too many individualistic moves during the game. I felt that i could have contributed so much more...
if only i dint do this, if only i did tat.... SIGH...

felt really apologetic to the final yrs... I think they are even more disappointed than me cos it's their last IHG.. really wanted to give them the Champion trophy. If only I dint miss those shots...ARGH.... played like shit!!!
The only consolation i can have is that there's next yr for me.. BUT is it really the case? How many next yr is there? There's just too much uncertainty to leave everything to next yr... sigh...



To the handball team,

It's been really enjoyable training with u all.. really learnt a lot from all of u all. I always looked up to the seniors and the alumni for guidance and it's through all your kind guidance that i have developed into the level i am now. Thanks Qinghuan, Jieming, Chailong and the rest of the team for trusting in me. Really learned a lot from all of you. hope u all will come down next yr to train the future batches of KR handball team.

Lets all not forget each other. Got time i hope all of us can meet to play a game or 2 or else we will all be rusty.. Handball is a sport that you must be constantly thinking of how you can improve your game... Legends are all normal pple like all of us.. They are just pple who go the extra mile to improve their game....
in the meantime study hard and take lotsa care..

MIA

HAVE ANYONE SEEN WILSON LATELY?


His frens have been complaining that he do not keep in contact with them and have been disappearing..

In fact he's sort of disappearing everywhere.. in hall, in block, in sch etc...

He's been really really busy recently juggling all the comms and activities that he join for fun or for frens.... Hall production ticketing, enterprise chair, KR bazaar, FLV, openhouse, handball, basketball.....
Not to mention that there's a lot of work involve for enterprise cos he's a chair...(not a table k u lame ass)


he's been miaing from some lecture cos he really cant wake up(pigging in his rm)

JIALAT!!!


After CNY, no more MIAing from School le...



TIme to show the world wat he can achieve if he pia...!

Been really busy recently doing all the rubbish in hall and outside... kinda tired from all that already... Couldnt really do all my role to the best i can as i have really too much committments to settle them... really grateful to those who understand and helped or are still helping me with reliefing my duties...

Excitement was turned into disappointment today but it's nobody's fault. Well.. too bad ..another time lor...


Turn out my IHG semis handball match with SH is postponed to 31th of january.. IRRITATING...it's a public holiday lar! Nvm.. still looking forward to meeting SH.. Nothing is stopping us from entering the finals...!

MEmories...

Was checking my msn juz now when i notice my fren's nick. "4 yrs ago i made a phonecall home... to indicate i was fine." the memories came rushing back....!!

yes i was enlist on this fateful day 4 yrs ago...


Haha since jianwei decides to update his blog for me i shall do the same and update this post juz for him...

I remember my first day of enlistment being one where i felt excited and scared at the same time.. i wanted to know what was installed for me and also scared cos i heard a lot of stories on how army was.....
remembered tat i was in section 1 of my platoon. a total of 20 pple in my bunk if i am not wrong... there is a no that ORD together with me.. pple like jianwei, wei jin, wut sing, joseph and Ivan etc...
first time i remembered about jianwei was that he perspire more than me!! hahaha... as it turns out we were buddy in a sense cos we were slping beside each other on the upper deck of the double deck bed... hahaa...

those memories.... about waking up at 4 plus and preparing for waterparade, and fearing the all too familar sound of slippers dragging along the corridor and getting tekan for no reasons at all...

Those were the days... sigh...


really long never meet up with my commandos frens le... miss them... why must most of them be in ntu and not nus...



















Anywya this was wat u always shouted during our water parade "SWIFT AND DEADLY, COMMANDO!!" And we sure live up to our company's motto! we were really swift and deadly during our missions... Best company for 2 yrs running... BEAT TAT! wat more BEST PLATOON for 2 yrs running!!


Miss company line sia.. miss my platoon...dunno y also... it just seems that we can achieve anything together...

Disappointment

Been really busy with enterprise recently... in between trying to organise the comm members to sell the CNY goodies, getting the enterprise rm ready, publicity for enterprise rm, making sure that the enterprise room is ready to be opened, there is also KR mini bazaar and KR bazaar.... SUper headache... to make thing worse there's FLV and also openhouse!!! BEen juggling all these with my studies.... I feel like a part time student...

to make thing worse there have been pple who have been chuing all sort of pattern with me..Their name whom i shall not reveal... AND DARE TO BLOODY SHOW ME ATTITUDE...

*censored*


Hai...

did i mention that the repair cost of my laptop is $1375? SO bloody expensive!!!! sigh.. looking for tuition and job lobang.. anyone?

Sweet sweet win~!

Just had handball match in the morning against TH. We managed to win them 17-16.. close call?
actually no... i feel that our team is much better in terms of skills. I feel that we did not play to our max potential.. but I am still glad that we grew during hte training and managed to come back and win the match cos we were trailing behind by 1,2 goals for most of the game.

AND AND AND AND AND!!! i finally managed to lose my virginity(i mean for handball)!! Scored 2 goals today!!! yay!! yaozong had a good game too with many of his penetration beating the opponents. i must say the TH keeper is really quite something. he managed to save quite a lot of shots from yannick and company. However i think our keeper rocks! MArtin is the bomb sia.. he managed many spectacular saves !!!

very tired now after the match... played the whole match today.. haha.. I guess i will ask sheng xing to replace me and let me have some match experience in the coming match ba.. the year 1 needs the opportunity to experience how it is like to play in IHG.. they are the future of KR handball... i still remember being quite a blur pivot last yr.. juz running around into all the empty space that i can c, panicking when i get the ball to shoot.. This yr i think i am more calm when i get the ball in the 6 m area... shall make sure i score 100% of my shots in the 6m line...

Looking for to the next match...
KR WARRIORS!!!

Absent Minded and CAreless mE

Have been really busy these few weeks... n it's not helping that a lot of things cock up. FIrstly. spilled my maggi on my laptop, misplace my enterprise key for the dunno how many times le... ARGH!!!

i shall make an effort to finish watever i need to do and yet at the same time not forget about little little things....
GRRR....

taken about 2-3 months ago.. steph and me.. haha..i look like a cock.. haha 

PRU pple at NUSSU appreciation dinner 

eating rochor beancurd in some ulu corner 

04/00 gathering.. so many of us turned up!! haha 

ROLEX OUTING!

it's been millions of yrs since i went out with my engin camp group" ROLEX". wat i can say is tat my engin camp freshies are the bomb!!! haha..i think most of them will agree with me that it's been a really fun day hanging out together..
they met for sentosa in the morning but as i was busy trying to settle my enterprise stuff, all the CNY stuff, i did not join them. I even had to skip handball training so that i can get some work done. SO i met them later in the afternoon in harbour front where we went to suntec to eat. been a while since i have been to the city area so it was pretty refreshing. WEnt Kenny rogers to consume our dinner. i think dinner was really the bomb cos all of us were like talking rubbish all the way, with pple like lester and you li wat do u expect?? We played this " i have never" game which totally rocks..!! hahaha.. many dark secrets were exposed but i shall leave out the content of them cos we promised not to tell.. haha. but it was a damn funny experience sia.. All the funny things that we said.. haha.. damn hilarious i tell u.. haha

We went to marina to play pool shortly after our meal. MY GOD!!! i am really out of practice sia.. haha couldnt even aim properly during the first few matches.. it was after some time that my form came back to me. haha.. ME and lee ching were unbeatable! hahaa.. =)

in all i really enjoyed meeting all of them today. feel really at home with them... haha.. i wish that my union camp pple were that close to me... sigh... my union camp pple are really separated into many small groups with a lot of them phamtomising themselves from the rest of the group..I dun know why sia. I think i should organise a FERVO outing soon... to eat or something...hmm..

dint have time for a lot of things lately. hopefully i can go out this weekend. the past few weeks i have been either too tired or too busy to go out..

NEW YR RESOLUTION

hmm.. was too bored in my room waiting for the basketball meeting later at 11 so i decide to start thinking what my new year resolution is.

let's c... hmm...
1) i must place more emphasis on my studies.!! gonna make sure i c some As this sem..!!
2) Gonna save up and get my driving lessons during the long hols.
3) i want to be able to get back into shape in time for reservist.
4) I am going to make sure i go for all lessons unless i got valid reasons.


hahah.. tat's all i can think for now...

personality test!

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

You are frustrated and stressed. You appreciate the finer things in life but at all times you appear to stay aloof, critical of everything and everyone about you. You will not be carried away by your emotions and you refuse to trust anyone or any situation unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore, you keep a strict and watchful control on your feelings as you must know exactly where you stand at all times. You demand complete sincerity as a protection against your own tendency to be too trusting.

You really would like to be completely uninhibited - to let your hair down - but you are held back by your sense of logic and rationalilty, since you realise that by simple stupidity you could lose everything - whatever that may be.

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm